Longing for home [PRIVATE-WAN]

The Katana swing came, but there was no desire to kill, no intent to wound or maim, nothing in her heart that implied it was anything more than intimidation. And so Ulv let it pass her by, and into the ground. Exhailing, she calmed herself down, because both parties being angry would just lead to catastrophe. And Ulv was the one with the self-control enough to calm down. So she did and looked out onto Verniy, who was being a giant fool. Even more foolish than she had been before they had got to this point.
"If you are going to lie to an empath, at least learn how to do it" she told Verniy, shaking her head before looking back at her.

"You are a fool, Verniy. If I thought for a second that you were not worthy of my attention then you wouldn't get a second of it. If you can not ask me for the help, if you doubt yourself so much that you can't believe for one second worth my help, then don't. You don't have to say anything. Ask for anything. Do anything. Except, take my hand. And I shall do the rest"

Is it really okay?, Verniy thought. She had suffered years of isolation and an eventual neglect in her childhood and growing up being fixated in being a reliable individual to everyone even if it meant having to submit her life. But somehow, this person, Ulv, would be so willingly to solve her problems even if she didn't do anything than being spoiled by her kindness. At this point, there wasn't any reason to reject or oppose Ulv anymore.

Verniy didn't say a word at all, ashamed at herself as she stubbornly angered Ulv and was so unsure of her own decisions because it was her very first time to have accept help from someone else who selflessly offered it to her. She eventually dropped the sword that she bore against Ulv out of her hand and slowly but surely, reaching it out towards Ulv's hand.

Maybe this time, its alright to be selfish for one more time.

Once she held on to Ulv's hand, she felt relieved as if a burden that she carried for a long time was slowly taken away from her. It wasn't a very immediate change but it was a warm feeling that Verniy silently accepts in belief that someone can finally let her experience change in herself.

Her expression remained unchanged, but tears began flowing out of her eyes for the first time, and it was.. a lot. It was the result from her years of emotional suffering that she had experienced from childhood until now and with the lack of any physical or emotional outlet, she was locked in this state of being a machine until now.

But this time, it is different. She can feel that part of her, what makes her a person in the first place, was working. Her facial muscles wasn't still working as its intended to but it was a sign of improvement that her tears were no longer "stuck". She can finally.. feel.. something.

There we go~ Tears weren't exactly a good thing normally but for Verniy, they were. Ulv's heart could feel her emotions and yet she lacked the reactions to those emotions, and it made Ulv feel bad that she couldn't feel. But here, and now, there were feelings coming from her. Ulv brought out a warm amber hankerchief from somewhere unseen and wiped away the tears that Verniy was crying with it, warmly smiling as she did so.
"It isn't an immediate thing. You won't be cured right away forever. You need to learn how this all works. Like being given a car, when you can't drive. You are better off than before because you had no car, but having a car doesn't mean you inately know how to drive it"

Returning to her table and finishing her tea, she looked about the place.
"This cafe is a great place to do just that. Abalia is a wonderful woman and is going through something similar to you, so you could help each other out on his journey of emotional discovery. It is a wonder best shared with others who can admire the wonder alongside you"

She would then nod, and head for the door.

Before Ulv could head for the door and leave, Verniy would visibly tug onto Ulv's shirt, catching her attention for a moment and prevent her from leaving. Once Ulv has noticed the tugging, she would let go of her hand.

Placing her sheathed katana straight on her right, she would kneel down with one knee in front of Ulv, with her head kept low to the ground and with her other hand holding onto her cap placed against her chest. Filled with gratitude, she closed her eyes and began uttering those words:
"Thank you.. Ulv.."

Taking a deep breath, she continued - "I.. owe a great debt to you.. I swear, even if it meant costing my life.. I will aid you when you are in need of one.."

Verniy eventually stood up, adjusting her weapon to hang against her waist when she had said what she wanted to express all along. To her, it was a debt that was worth more than her life - and she didn't hesitate to say that she offers it away if it was necessary.

She looked at Ulv straight in the eyes and if she hadn't left yet, she would move closer towards her and quickly pecked Ulv's cheek with her lips, before she sprinted out of the door and bid her farewell.

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