Don't Fear The Dark [Liltotto/Giselle]

Hurried fingers tapped on a glass screen in the darkness.

[1:12:20] G
[1:12:22] Plz come fast itd an emergenvy
[1:13:45] sht wait also bring some of ur clothes plz
[1:13:56] Plz plz plz b awake this isnt a joke

Labored breaths rose and fell, her figure obscured by what little sheets she had on the couch. Giselle was the only person she could think to call for this kind of situation, and it certainly was an unorthodox one. Her hands shook with the phone in her hand, all manner of feeling coursing in her body. She wanted her. She wanted her to be awake and come. She needed to talk about this, and it was better with the person who introduced her to the world proper.

Though the room was disturbingly dark, blackened shadows stretching from her body and reaching across, those familiar, simple eyes bubbling within it.

Well, that was going to be an interesting conversation. She was relieved that Giselle was actually awake, interpretations of her text aside, she didn't have any desire other than to wait for her to come in her disorientated state. Her body felt completely different, creepy dancing shadows extending from her body aside, she couldn't help but feel along herself in the dark. She definitely wasn't hallucinating, definitely didn't eat any demons lately, and the only thing that occurred between before the change and after was.. Meditation. Never in her life had she heard of meditation causing your body to do weird shit, so she was at a loss there.

She was continuing to examine herself until she heard that chipper tone from behind her door, both her and her shadows perking in unison as she'd peer down at the nearly blackened floor covered in bright white eyes. She wondered if stepping on it would hurt at all... Well, quite literally didn't hurt to put her foot down. And then another, and then up way higher than expected. She stumbled, almost falling over, grumbling in pure upset as her taller form would bumble over to the door, the click of a lock sounding for the woman on the other side and the brief pop of the door opening would reveal a bit of an eyeful for it being so dark behind the door.

Liltotto certainly was there, a messy stream of golden hair draped over her features, paled by the scarce glow of the night that beamed in past the crack of the door, what little light shining in hardly beginning to cut into the thick shadows that writhed behind her obviously far more matured form, draped in a blanket to hide her nude features.

She hardly needed the call to recognize her: Though Giselle appeared far different so suddenly, she still saw the woman that was her mother, the one she lost, the one she regained.

In silence, her eyes seemed to be the brightest they'd ever manage to be, feelings of joy and despair surfacing as her eyes laid upon her. She'd completely forgotten her current state for just a moment,

"..Come in and put that stuff down to the side," She reflexively touched her throat, her voice sounding far more grown and mature than the child-like one she had spoken in for years. She'd back away to give Giselle space to come in, but once her arms were free, Liltotto immediately moved in to embrace her, arms oddly tight around the other woman as she'd let out a labored sigh,

"..I feel like tonight's gonna be long."

She looked down almost incredulously at her chest as Giselle attempted to slip a shirt on her, only for it to not quite cover her as well as she'd hope. Even in the darkness she tightly held the blanket to her form, her hunger far outweighed by the confusion and disorientation she currently felt. She'd lean against the wall, unsure of how else to navigate with her present stature for the moment, as Giselle would bring that name up again... Mazda Mazda Mazda, he just kept coming up, she swore...

"Alright.. First off, Mazda didn't do squat to me, at least I sure as fuck hope he doesn't have some long-distance busty babe ray technique," Of course it was stated in tired jest but at the same time was a gross possibility, "Second off... Ew, no thanks, I have yet to feel that way towards anyone and it certainly is not him, least in the capacity you're hinting at."

She'd look to the eyes that stretched from her shadow across the darkness of the room, staring back at the two of them rather familiarly. It wasn't an unsettling sight to her, but she definitely had no idea what was up with them,

"..Third off... I wanted to talk to you. Or like, I feel ready to talk to you, about... Myyyyyyy feeeeliinngsss..." She'd let the remainder of the sentence out in a delayed, awkward croak through her teeth, "...Cuz... The first step in fixing a problem is acknowledging there is one, annnnddddd... I definitely have a pretty huge one on that front."

Liltotto did contemplate the joke a little seriously for a moment. Of course she didn't expect to become a fucking giant, but at the same time... Was this the beginning of something else? She felt wary, but not hesitant... A feeling of cautious optimism welled in her heart at this change, even if she felt out of sorts at the moment. Though, she did feel the need to confront Giselle - no, her mother - on how she felt, how she hurt.

Sitting down next to Giselle, the shadows around her writhing, she was silent for a few moments, her eyes shut, golden locks paled by the darkness draping her body wrapped in a blanket as she would go on,

"..I know, that i've never been the best with like, opening myself up much..." Her tone was low and reserved, as if somehow fearful the world would hear her if she spoke loud enough, "You're my mother, so out of anyone, I should be more open to you about my struggles... So..."

Her fingers tightened on the blanket, "...I wasn't driving around the place for fun or just disliking everywhere. Time and time again I just had my world fall apart until the point I just... Gave up. I just thought, no matter what, i'm just going to lose everything, so why bother have anything? So, I just went full hermit, I thought it'd make me happier, like maybe I wasn't cut out for connections or human life..."

Her breath hitched for a moment, "...That was a fucking lie I told myself over and over again. I was too much of a coward to put a foot forward, instead I spent decades fucking off in the wasteland trying to convince myself that it was for the better, no matter how much the loneliness hurt me. Then.. Then you basically pop back from the dead like nothing ever happened, like I didn't come across your horribly mutilated body, to the point you were practically irrecoverable mulch. The fact you managed to just bounce back and get yourself going... It just made those years of solitude feel all the more pointless and painful."

Her eyes ached with sadness and mist, "..I want to do better now. I don't want to be the failure that watched everything be taken away from me... But i'm so scared. I don't know how to describe it, scared of progressing? Scared of what I may become? I.. I don't know."

Liltotto, silent and in thought after all of that, looked as if she was to do her usual behavior, to nod it off and keep any further words sparse, unrevealing and uninterested in showing the depths of herself.

But this time was different. Rather than clamping shut, she suddenly would turn, reaching her arms around and hugging Giselle once more. The wetness of tears rolling down her face could be felt on the woman's arm as Lil pressed her face against her, arms tightly woven around her as her voice would croak out,

"...You're a good mom," She'd choke on tears for a moment before continuing, "I always regretted never letting you know. I was so hurt when you were killed, I would have no idea how much I'd miss you til it fell on me like an incredible weight. You were always good to me, you always are good to me, and I never did enough to show how grateful I was for that."

Slowly, she'd lift away from the woman's body, and looked her in the eye. The rare sight of Liltotto's crying was evident, even in the shadows,

"So i'm doing that now. I don't want to have any more regrets. I don't want to look back one-hundred years from now and feel awful. Nobody's in charge of my destiny but me, so I should act with more control of it."

She sniffed gently, a smile creeping across her features, "...Thank you, for still being there for me."