Lovely Day For A Hike [Caly/Anis]

Suspect doctor names aside, Calypso had opened her mouth to say otherwise, but she stopped herself, letting the woman speak her piece, trying to understand her as she did so, however things got interestingly strange when the woman was suddenly rambling all seriously about bacon. Bacon? Why bacon? However, the more she listened, the more she realized what the blonde Quincy was trying to do; she was trying to make sense of the situation in a way she could understand. Instead of voicing that sex was nothing like bacon, the Danava would put a finger to her lip, thinking for a moment. She'd oblige with this, obviously; if it was a way to help her understand, she didn't mind dipping into the unusual,

"Well, I wouldn't think it's all that straightforward. Like, the first thing you said, where someone tells you to stop eating bacon.. It could be for more than just they don't like bacon. While, yeah if it's your choice to eat bacon, then you should be allowed to eat bacon, but that person could be trying to warn you - what if the bacon is bad in some way? What if you're eating too much bacon? You could get sick if you overdo it. Like, you wouldn't want to get sick, would you?"

She'd flash a soft smile at Anis before continuing, "Then there's that someone who insists on you eating bacon; here's the important thing - that's someone else trying to make that decision for you. I mean, what if you don't want to have bacon that day? What if you want to have.. Well, steak? But you have this person constantly badgering you with bacon, bacon, bacon! You'd probably feel bad after a while and just cave in and eat it, even if you didn't really feel for it that day. But then, it isn't your choice to eat bacon, is it? Someone made that choice for you, you were pressured into it. And well, I sure don't think bacon you got pushed into having is as good as bacon you felt like having that day, do you?"

This felt so strange to communicate, but she was trying her best to put it in a way that made sense, wondering if the woman even understood what she meant to say,

"Then the last thing.. I mean, again, maybe that person just doesn't feel like having bacon, they don't have to not like it or how you do it. You can like bacon, but not want to have it all the time, you know. It isn't always that you're doing something wrong. Everyone should get to choose what they want, or don't want, it's really important. Sometimes you want bacon, sometimes you don't want bacon. But you also should listen to someone if they're trying to tell you 'You're overdoing it with the bacon!'. They could very well save you from getting sick, or worse. A warning is completely different than pushing you to do something you don't want."

Strange explanations aside, she'd shrug, "..Does any of that make sense?"

"...."

Anis stared at Calypso as she went far too hard on the metaphor and started poking holes in the simple logic she had built for herself. And also tying her badging about this to a negative aspect of someone caving and doing something they don't want to do because they have been pestered to do it.

"Do you have to make everything so complicated? If you get tied up on what might be, you miss what is. Start judging life around what might be rather than what is. And you totally missed the point!" Anis exclaimed, her face getting covered with blue reishi lines that crawled up her eyes and into her hair. Great, now the Blut was active, and she was going to pass out again in an hour or two because it just refused to acknowledge her order to turn off.

"You are insistent about the bad sex because you had the bad sex. Which I get. Angry Anis is awake! She has eyes! I know that the whole thing was a catastrophe, but just because you know you are on fire, doesn't make the fire go out!" she'd glare at her gloved hands and growl a little, emotional control totally shot these days.

"When I say I have no skills, I mean that literally. I ran away from home when I was like nine, and got kidnapped by some nasty people. And then when they were all gone, I ran right into Sofia and her lessons...and then when I was freed from her, Captain Armstrong barreled into my life, thinking the first question to ask after all that was what duties did you do in the Vandenreich before all this!. I didn't! I have never been on my own, I have never been self sufficent, I have never been anywhere that wasn't under someone else that didn't want me to think! I-" she started to hyperventalite and felt her fingers tingling. So, with great force, she clenched her fists and shook her head.

"No no no no no no no no no. Go away. You are a horrible person to people. Go away" she whispered to herself, her body seeming to stutter and skip between flashing moments of unnaturally pale skin and hair, like Anis was trying to force herself not to turn into something she did not want.