That Icky Feeling [Caly/Ulv]

Midnight. An uncanny time for a being like Caly to be up, being that she mostly survived off of dream energy, but she needed some time in a quiet place. The moon was almost full when she sat down, staring at the sky, the warmer breeze of summer touched her body, the girl feeling a bit sad from the lack of stars. Some parts of the world, she could see the stars just fine, but in others she hardly saw a twinkle in the sky. She knew it was something about too many lights on, but it made her sad nonetheless. At least the moon wasn't engulfed by modern society's advents..

Her place of choice was the beach, a place a skant few would go to at this time normally, Caly being at the edge of the waves, feeling the sea lap at her feet as she looked into the deeper and deeper abyss that was the sea. A sadness was over the girl, but right now it was less sharp and acute, and more just quiet. Over her recent trifles and pitfalls, and over what was to come, for herself and for her realm as a whole.

She remembered the demons she couldn't prevent from perishing, along with others she tried to help. But right now, they were just dull thoughts in her mind, as the girl was trekking into sleepy hours. Her fingers laced the sand quietly, as the occasional small sea creature would waddle by her, mostly crabs, almost feeling like they were staring, before continuing their journey. She didn't say a word.

Caly sat quietly as she heard the sound of the sand shuffle quite a bit. She didn't even need to look up to know it was Ulv, giving the woman a gentle sighing, "Hi Ulv.. You're up late."

Then the woman mentioned her being unhappy, which Caly only silently nodded to, as she was pulled into a muscly hug and told to tell her about it, ".. Heh.. Aunty Ulv..."
She couldn't help but softly laugh, sighing, "I mean, no, this place is really nice... Every time i've come i've had at least one thing to smile at..."

She felt Ulv's tough body, but she was fine with it, too tired to really do much but lie against her. She sighed softly, ".. As for my sads," Her tired mind momentarily roared with the sights of the war, her emotions, what she had to do, what was to come, her mother...

"..Same ol', honestly," A sigh escaped her lips, "Same ol' bundle of horrors that is my life so far..."

She looked up at Ulv, her amber eyes glimmering in the revealed starlight, "Ulv. I don't wanna become like my Mama..."

Her words were soft, "..But I keep feeling afraid that something is going to break me down into it. I dunno how to stop feeling scared of that."

The sleepy Calypso continued to lay against the muscled woman, taking in her warmth with no restraint. It lightened the darkness in her heart, though her thoughts still rested on her destiny, and the atrocities she had to witness firsthand. However, she felt far more at ease, at least without having the sensation to pass out as she was. She listened to Ulv's remark on how even Mama didn't want to be like Mama, which made no sense to the girl; the manic queen seemed to relish in her own lostness to the bounds of sense and rightness.

".. I've been wanting to help Mama since the day I was born." She spoke softly, "...I promised i'd help her, but, it was a promise to myself... Mama doesn't really acknowledge I exist half the time."

Caly remained rested against the woman, making no attempt at moving or squirming away, as she spoke of giving her something of her own, of needing a goal and passion alike to push through obstacles, which made the tired Caly blink curiously,

"..What's that, Ulv..?" She asked her, curious of her motive in bringing such a thing up, ".. I don't know, how to have that passion you have, that fire... I want to help people so badly, that it aches me, but... I always feel pinned back, even now. That passion, and strength, is something I admire in you, Ulv... Something I wish I could ignite in myself."

She looked to the pearly sand, smiling sadly, "..I dunno, I just don't wanna break because I saw one too many lives go 'poof', and go mad.."

She sleepily blinked, looking up at Ulv, this woman's sentences getting progressively more and more confusing, but the dancing amber flames were what took her attention for the moment, headpats as well. As Ulv placed her flaming hand to her chest, the flames didn't hurt, if anything they beckoned, comfort and serenity in their flicker. The demoness was completely fine with accepting this flame, she trusted Ulv, even if she was brutal at times, breathing softly as her hands rested in her lap, feeling the heat of comfort in her being.

She listened to Ulv's explanation about the power of such a flame, nodding gently, "...That's amazing, Ulv..." She let out a good yawn, "..Just... Really amazing. You're really amazing.. Though.."

She looked up to her, looking the fierce yet kind wolf in the eyes, "..What is your mad plan to help my Mama?"

She couldn't help but feel her heart skip several beats, when she felt the rush of the connection, and soon after, the hearts of others, and Ulv's own burning passion, greatest amongst all of them. There was only one connection she could recognize, but she didn't think she had met any others connected to this network, her breath feeling hot in the midnight chill. She didn't move a muscle, but she felt better in this moment, at the very least, leaning against Ulv's not-so-soft body, still trying to maintain a conversation with her.

She blinked slowly, staring up at her, as she listened to her self proclaimed 'mad plan', sighing softly as she listened, mulling over the details she explained, listening, til she spoke about perhaps the young demon would want to take up such a mission in her stead. She blinked a good five times, the shock certainly giving her 'stay awake' juices more gumption, her mouth stuck open in silent shock at the idea of the woman who held her having enough faith to ask something like that of her.

"I-I mean, well.. F-first off.. Aren't your powers consent-based? How would you convince her to let you try? My Mama is just.. Just...!" A clear wash of anger came over the girl as she grunted, then sighed, "..She just, acts the worst, she doesn't listen, she doesn't care. It's just so, so frustrating..! All she wants to do is just corrupt stuff and take stuff and all of that stuff..! She doesn't want to change...!"

Caly panted, quickly raising her hands to cover her face, "I mean... I don't think she even cares... I.. Just... I want to help her so terribly badly, and to help her learn how to care, and actually love me- I-I mean, our family. But.. But I mean.. If your power can't work on her..."

Golden tears came from her eyes in their typical copious amounts, her usual crying taking hold, "..H-how, how could I have a chance, even if I want so hard for it to just work out..?"