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Snopy laughed a bit as she said she wasn't the clubbing type. ""Well, you had me fooled then. That was all he could have said. She really did look the part for going out on the town, even if her demeanor didn't entirely match up to that. With his main question answered, he nodded and shrugged. "Well, if you really do know Shadin, then there's a good chance you'll have a better chance than I. Apparently I either have a forgettable face, or the fact that I lack some sort of badge of station threw a newbie off." He began to lead her towards the Yayjuu, at her request, since she made it quite clear she lacked directional skills. Quite frankly her memory of menial things seemed to not be the greatest. "Come to think of it, that is the best idea. I'm not getting any hostility in you, but helping a stranger "bust in" wouldn't be the smartest plan. Although...you are probably thinking the same thing, right?" He turned his head to her. He got her, he saw her eyes narrow earlier. He was good at getting a read, and making himself hard to read. "Perhaps...I know too much with too few tools at my disposal to have...honest intentions?" Snopy shook his head and shrugged. "Well regardless as to whether those were your thoughts, rest assured I'm not stupid enough to actually try any nonsense. I have no desire in starting trouble. I've spent the last 5 years solving everyone's problems but mine. For once I want to get my own problems solved, and that doesn't exactly work making enemies of someone who could probably turn me into a fine paste, as well as an entire city." Snopy turned back to her. "If that's not good enough then feel free to walk away."

He sensed her suspicion, but he did not sense she was ready to fire off Kido. That being said, while he wouldn't ENTIRELY be on guard, he spent the last 5 years mostly in locations that required perpetual high alert. And he was fast, very fast. It wouldn't be that simple to strike him. However, so long as she didn't turn on him and attack, she'd bring up one excellent question. Excellent in how quickly it made Snopy freeze up. "Who?" He asked, but he knew who she meant. Tsubine repeated herself, but was very specific. "I...figured you meant her. Well...uh." He wasn't too comfortable, or rather it was painful. But no, even if it hurt, he'd always have a lot to say about her. With her gone, it was basically all positive. "Well...she was my girlfriend. You were right the first time." He sighed, thinking back on her. "She was...well she was my superior. Well not my direct superior, she was of a different branch of the organization. She was the one who trained me though. She was...well she was cold, distant, serious...and well I loved her. She was a sweetheart inside. People probably thought I was insane considering how cold she could be, but well. I guess I might have been a little, spending 5 years to search the ends of the earth to find her. If loving her that much made me crazy...I'm okay with being crazy."

This woman made incapacitating him sound way easier than it was. He prided himself on his progress. It was all blood, sweat, and tears. A...well more tears than he'd like to admit, but yes. He didn't flinch even slightly at how casual she was. He's had plenty of people threaten him before, he spent his entire life dealing with people wanting to kill him. People, hollow, that crazy meth dude down the street. He'd seen plenty. He kept it vague, but this woman seemed to be touched by his story. She smiled anyway. He didn't see it as anything special though. He was just being honest. He chuckled a bit at her next comment though. Either Kanna was lucky, or neither of them were. Snopy felt like he had a bad hand either way. Once they arrived at the Yayjuu, Tsubine took the reins. She was much more...forceful than he preferred to be. Snopy crossed his arms, and leaned against a wall. One of the other guards, patrolling, saw the scene, but merely looked to him like "Is this bitch serious?" and Snopy just shrugged with a goofy grin on his face. It was clear both of them were being taken for a bit of a ride.

Suddenly Snopy was being made to take her arm. "Woah we just met." He spoke surprised as suddenly she split into two. "Ah, a gigai. Of course." He said matter of factly. Yep, that actually made a lot of things make sense. She began to name drop and make threats about what Shadin would do. It was actually kind of smart. He could sense she was strong at this point. "Well, either she's not lying and she see's Shadin, or she's lying and Shadin splatters her against a wall for threatening you. I think you're pretty safe either way." He spoke, holding effectively a corpse. Snopy slung her gigai over his shoulder. I didn't leave the Gotei to be forced to lug around someone's Gigai around. He thought, shaking his head as he followed Tsubine. Truth be told, this could be a very silly plan. If Shadin wasn't around, this could just be a trap to get rid of violent intruders, which wouldn't be unwarranted. Though they'd probably be fine if Shadin was indeed around.

As Shadin strolled in, this was not the man he once knew. He could never claim to know Shadin as well as Tsubine had, assuming she was telling the truth, but something was...off. Then again, he was probably the same way. Snopy put on the motions of being fine, but there was a...deadening inside himself. Still, it's one thing to feel numb from pain and another to see an old friend seeming so disconnected from everything. He questioned how it could have gotten to this, yes while he never fully understood it, there was one thing that seemed to always have a profound effect on this man. The Yuudeshi network... Was it caused by the network...or textured by it? No, he doubted that alone would cause such a change. Being so connected to data and computer information, straight to the brain, couldn't be the healthiest for an unstable psyche, at least he assumed. "Too long...from the looks of it." Snopy's voice did not crack, he was unnerved but held himself firm. The last thing he felt was needed was him to fear. "It was the same for me, was it not? Five years?" He spoke, Tsubine had left around the same time as he did, that was strange if she was remembering it right. The only thing breaking the cold stillness Shadin now seemed to radiate was the joke he let out. Whatever had happened to Shadin's mind was suffocating all most. It seemed to suck the energy and warmth out of the air. It wasn't the same coldness as one who is cruel. No...this was far more biting. It was the coldness of someone who had lost a bit of themselves.

Snopy looked around and could tell from the looks of the people he encountered, they felt it too. This wasn't his imagination. He shook his head as he pulled off his trench coat, long an important protection from the elements, revealing two blade's, his Zanpakuto, and 2 revolvers he had nestled within. "Got somewhere I can put this? Or should I just lay it on a chair?" Below the coat lie a much different look. A casual t-shirt and jeans. They were faded, the jeans especially were torn, not for style, but from combat. There were stains all over them. He had money, plenty of it. The number of rewards he had gotten for helping across the world while he chased echoes of the past was innumerable. He just...wasn't concerned with his tattered clothing. He had replaced his clothes plenty, as many of them ripped beyond use. He just had too much in his head to worry about something so trivial. He was showered at least, and he did wash the clothes. The stains were just far too deep. The man before him...is what Snopy could become if he wasn't careful.
He didn't want that...he'd have to recover a sense of normalcy before his emotions could deaden further.

"How strange it is, that two people from your past would come back at the same exact time." The Vizard risked the unsettling feeling and looked into Shadin's eyes. He was trying to get a read, though Shadin was perceptive too. Odds were this risked opening up the pain within his own heart to him. The heterochromic eyes of the Vizard risked spilling everything. Though, cold or not, Shadin was still an old friend. The only one Snopy had even. It was hard to smile the smile he thought he'd have with Shadin giving off such unsettling vibes, yet still, a small part of him was happy. For the first time in 5 years, he was in the presence of an actual friend. "Even if this isn't quite the reception I expected, it's good to see you again." He didn't expect excitement or anything with his return, he expected Shadin's old ways. "These 5 years...have not been kind, I needed to see a familiar face for once." He did smile, and it was genuine even if it wasn't a particularly strong smile.

As he went to put the clothes somewhere, Shadin was apparently about 1 or 2 or 20 steps ahead of him and ended up opening some kind of portal and the clothes fell right in. Snopy casually blinked a few times. "Shadin...the fuck are my clothes?" The monotone was more humorous than it was annoyed. It gave off a very "Typical Shadin" vibe to it. He blinked a few more times, barely even breathing as Shadin gave the explanation. A pocket dimension, well that does sound like a very Shadin move. It kept the place clean that was for sure.

"I don't know what I was even expecting asking that question."

He shook his head with a chuckle. A light one. Still the focus was not on him for the most part. He knew Tsubine longer, so she was the one who took the stage. Snopy leaned back into a wall, arms crossed, as he allowed her to tell her story. It wasn't his business, nor was it his place to say anything. So she worked for the Gotei huh? Truth be told...he felt weird, like he should have recognized her. Granted, he wasn't too aware of who the Captain Commander was. Snopy was busy, he worked his ass off in the grind. Slew hollow way above his rank plenty towards the last months of his service. Yet he was just an unranked soldier, if she was the CC at the time of his service odds were she wouldn't recognize him. Though he probably should have recognized her. As he listened to her story, it struck a bit of a chord with him. His face softened a bit as she described it. How she fell in love. She ran off to start a family, where the Gotei couldn't find them.

It really wasn't the same thing as his situation. He didn't run off with Kanna. Hell, he ran off without her. The Gotei back then didn't give him a choice, they did NOT like Vizard in their ranks. And he changed into one, somehow. He still didn't know what happened, he didn't feel like any foreign energies had entered his body at any point in his life. He always had a good sense of things, it was like there was some reason he COULDN'T see it as foreign. Either way. He had to visit Kanna in a complicated secretive manner, as the Captain Commander of the Gotei had enacted Marshal law. She had a curfew and he was in hiding. But the part that struck him most, was he, Tsubine's love, was killed by some monster.

"Killed..."

Snopy said under his breath. This was the worst case scenario he was forced to accept in his mind for Kanna. She fought hollow and demons plenty, and heck, even his contacts in the Gotei at the time couldn't give him an answer. She had just vanished. The love of his life. As awful as it sounded, Tsubine was almost lucky. She knows what happened, but unless a day comes where Kanna comes back to him, this felt worse to him. He just doesn't know, and it has made it hard to let go after all these years. Shadin and Sumika were the only two people Snopy told everything to actually. About how she vanished, and how he was going to look for her. Five years and he was back. After Tsubine finished her story, he gave a little bit of time for Shadin to converse with her, before he spoke up.

"The Gotei's rules are strict...aren't they?" He spoke. "Once you join, they want you to play by their orders for life. Even after they don't want you."

He leaned his had backwards and stared up towards the ceiling for a few moments, simply thinking.

"Focused so hard on their own soldiers faults and individuality somehow making them weaker, when they should be focused on the feral demons and the hollow that plague the world

Remember when I came to you 5 years ago and said I was leaving? What was it you said...something about not stopping me if this is what I needed to do." He shook his head. "I don't know what I was even thinking. What was I gonna find? Just walk into some bar and bam, there she was? What I was looking for probably wasn't even a woman anymore, just a mangled corpse...if anything was left. Someone like her...doesn't just vanish like that." He sighed. "Part of me wishes you had stopped me. Said "You're too unstable" and held me back.
I spent 5 years grasping at shadows. I've grown a lot stronger in that time, but I haven't been able to heal emotionally. I may never know what happened to her, which means I may never have closure."

He turned to Tsubine. He had not ignored her, in fact it was clear some of this reminiscing was to bring her up to speed on what he had gone through. "We all have problems. It's not your fault or my fault, or anyone's fault really, that it happened. You have nothing to apologize for. You aren't the only one who hasn't have a loved one ripped from you. You at least have some answers. A goal, even if the details are hazy."

Snopy looked back to Shadin with a look of realization. "Well this is kinda obvious at this point, but I never said it directly. I failed, quite miserably. I traveled every inch of this world, and of some others. Shadowfall, K-world, Monsuta, it didn't matter where. Not a single clue. I saved thousands in the process, and I got my little internal problem under control, but I couldn't find even a single clue. My stubbornness only recently gave out. Now I'm back, disconnected from everyone, want to retake my life, and I haven't the faintest clue what to do. So I came to the one person who I could find."