Broken people [Open]

the day seemed so illuminating holding the spark that shone through even the harshest of coverage, the foliage that lay above had become withered and golden, the leaves dying ... why must everything come to an end. Tsui seemed to contemplate this a lot lately, everything had been so different since he'd returned he had always hated this place, ever since his scuffle with alucard it felt like bad memories. Even now Tsui never let the painful feelings fade, he never seemed to carry on everyday now was just another excuse to trudge through the guilt. But that was the burden this man had let caress his heart, he hated himself he loathed what he'd done but he had to continue on no matter how far the darkness dragged him. And it was because of his intent that he sat here on this cod steel bench, his long crimson hair flowing within the wind as his head sitting perched on his fists, everything around him was fading it was all becoming translucent. The mans light was going out, and as much as he feared leaving everything behined, he feared what he would become even more.

You know it never stops.

The words slipped into his mind like a knife piercing his brain. The voice was so familiar so crushing to hear, an as tsuis eyes dare shift towards it hed know the just how encompassing his heart was. Before him stood a girl, her hair just like his a deep hue of red almost drawing in all the light around it. She smiled down at him her eyes and saddened smile mirroring the smile that tsui had been putting on for so may years, almost telling him that she forgave all the petty shit, that she could see into his soul and just wanted her big brother to move on. Yatsuki Yazaki, the mans twin sister and to tsui she was the site that brought his hands from his face, leaving this man to stare into the face of his sister, his heart beat jumping as he looked upon her a melancholy look growing over his face, his eyes beginning to water as he tried to reach out to her .... but as the faces come they too vanish and thus like a pale smoke Yatsuki vanished the girl gone from him yet again his hand trembling as it slowly receded back to him his heart still in disbelief. And now he was left sitting, the image just that a haunted visage of what he had lost, how could he call himself a brother after what happened to her? how could he not hate himself? As the continued silence drew on it seemed however a new voice would pierce the veil enshrouding tsui.

I put you on the level of A-class opponents, so I will not screw around anymore. No more fucking around. Let's get this over and done with.

The voice was more so familiar to Tsui than any other he could comprehend, he knew these words and as he turned to the source it was exactly what he perceived..... Alucard Iramasha. Tsuis surprise at this man sitting on the bench beside him was only beaten by the surprise of the dark haired demon clan member launching forward gripping Tsuis throat strangling him. The world seemed to enclose on him,the lights blackening out as he clawed at his throat his pulse racing .... he was scared. For once in his life Tsui hated the concept of the end, he hated the idea of this being the end of everything he had done, all the struggle to hold on for those who couldn't and he'd end with fingers wrapped around his throat now that was something he couldn't bare. He squirmed fighting struggling as he broke into a cold sweat his body working to free him until finally ... this phantom of tsuis mind faded just like the last, leaving Tsui reeling trying to catch his breath, heaving as he stared at the grass bellow. This was discernibly the horrors he must endure over and over but why now? was it the lack of sleep? the pain pills he'd taken? or just the evil in his heart trying to strip away all hope. And it was about to succeed for as he rose his head it wasn't the man clad in red he'd see ......it was her.

The only woman tsui had ever come to love, the black haired girl.. the ghost who plagued his every waking moment. He stared his tourture showing as his lips began to tremble his eyes teary as he tried to rise up his legs almost buckling under him, his pure sadness showing as the man broke down his breath ragged and broken, his heart racing faster than ever before as he reached out to place his palm on her cheek, he didnt care if this was real, he didnt care if she left he just wanted to see her smile once more. But tragedy is not followed by love .... as his hand reached out this specter wouldn't be like the others, no she would not fade .... she would walk. Her eyes looking straight through tsui as she passed through him like he was nothing walking ahead her arms outstretched and a smile brimming her face. The darkness clutched tsuis heart as he turned watching her pick up a young boy, his crimson hair resembling his, she twirled him around, he was beautiful and to her she was everything.... it was perfect.

With a wince she and the child to would disappear into nothingness, his demons had shown themselves and had taken effect. Tsui collapsed his legs buckling as he could no longer take the pressure, his heart was in overdrive .... he was going into cardiac arrest. Tsui knew what was to come he knew that beyond the light he could find peace ... but did he deserve it? taking his right fore arm into his left hand he would begin raising the surface temperature of his palm literally burning his other arm. Trying to force a calm as he focused on the pain allowing his heart to slow down to bring him back. He knew this would work for if one were to even look he'd been doing it for almost a week now, the pain pills he'd taken trying to counter act the multiple burns he had across his arms. Tsui was broken and as he clenched to the metal chair, dragging himself across to lean against it he could only conceive a short sentence.

Why cant you stop? why cant you just let me die...