Re: This Guilt of Mine [Calypso/Ulv]

Tue Mar 17, 2020 8:21 am

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THE ROYAL ASTHAVON

Enter Calypso

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This Guilt of Mine [Calypso/Ulv] - Page 2 6EdIfMt

Calypso's breath was heavy as she tried to contain her illness, slowly shaking her paled head when asked if she wanted to be taken home. She looked completely saddened as she let out a sigh,

"I don't wanna go home yet... Home is.. Kind of a quagmire of despair right now.. Nobody's really taking Arianda's seal being busted too well."

The young Asthavon looked to the side, softly clearing her throat, ".. And.. Speaking of her.. She is.. My mom. Like.. My.. Other mom. And... Urf.. Probably the shittiest moment for her to find out, honestly.. I.. Wanted to wait for a better time but, I ended up doing it at the worst of times.. Hah..."

Calypso's body tensed, soon the woman was thrown into a coughing fit, droplets of black that reeked of despair and traumas flew from her lips, shuddering afterwards.

".. Yeah everyone feels literally so fucked up it's making me sick, and i'm not able to filter it properly right now because.."

She suddenly appeared to be in pure fear, eyes wide as her hand floated to her chest, almost as if she forgot what kind of instance she was in, but quickly snapped out of it, her voice shaking,

"The flame... It.. Got.. Ripped out..."

A hand slapped to her mouth as she felt another wave of nausea, eyes tightly shutting as her body tensed to prevent another rush of black goo from falling from her lips.

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[THEFROST]

Tue Mar 17, 2020 8:47 am

ULV AUBER| WHITE MASK BUDDHA

Ulv would nod casually when Calypso told Ulv about Arianda's relation to Cali."I know. So did she. I pretty much told her that months ago, and I don't know if she followed through with finding out for sure or not but she can't pretend to be ignorant about something I outright told her" Ulv shrugged. Then, Calypso got into a coughing fit and seemed very sick. Though this level of sickness was something only a friend of hers could deal with.

"Also, know that. You think you can wink out of the network and then appear next to someone who wants to eat my spleen and I won't connect the dots? Na. But, saying you can't filter it properly right now because you lost the flame is bad. It's not something to be relied on, it's an assistant. It helps. It opens doors. But you are a woman strong enough to deal with it yourself if you just accept yourself"

Ulv would bend down and take the girls hands in her own.
"But, I am not desensitised to your plight. I have a friend who can give you something to get you started"

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Wed Mar 18, 2020 2:57 pm

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THE ROYAL ASTHAVON

Enter Calypso

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"Oh.. I'm.. Pretty sure she may have had that in mind.. But just wasn't sure," She let out another cough, "But.. If you already know, then.. Alright."

Calypso, despite appearing under the weather and clearly feeling under the weather, along with still practicing some hesitance, tried to keep her own mood lifted. Being in the dumps during this time would only make her feel worse.

"I can't filter it properly because right after.. My.. Ugh.. My family are generally in the pits.. And.. I feel all of it.. T-through the seal.. And.. Urgh.. It's like trying.. To seal up a big hole in a dam that suddenly got busted.. Busted open. It's hard when there is... Is already a ton of water coming out of it!"

She held her chest, wheezing softly, "... I can do it.. Its.. Just really the worst of times to have that.. S-support torn from under me.. And.. I have a sinking feeling you can't... Huff, Do that twice."

Calypso dipped her head, but squeaked, jolting and flinching when Ulv suddenly took her hands, but seemed to relax, however her hands trembled in the woman's own, "Ah, I'm.. I'm okay okay. Ahm.. A Friend? Who might.. Who might that be? ..Nevermind, if they can help me out with getting the.. Taste of despair out of my mouth, i'd.. Be.. Grateful."

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[THEFROST]

Wed Mar 18, 2020 3:45 pm

ULV AUBER| WHITE MASK BUDDHA

Well, she was a bit of a mess. Though, nothing that couldn't be fixed. So, when Calypso asked who her friend was, Ulv nodded, and another man appeared. He was decidedly simian in nature, his face had more fur than hair, and a prehensile tail swished behind him. Buddhist beads were draped around his neck, and he carried a gold-banded staff over his shoulder. Middle-aged but still vigorous, the monkey man had an interested smile as he looked at the two.

"Getting your money's worth, aye?" The simian man laughed.
"Mmm. Calypso, this is The Victorious Fighting Buddha, Sun Wukong. Brother Wukong, this is Calypso Astavon. She needs a hand I can't give" Ulv would speak, and then let Sun look over Calypso, with eyes that - like Ulv's - seemed to see so much more than just what they were looking at.

"Mmm, there is a hole. She lost your thing, huh.....well, have you tried throwing poo at her?" Sun offered. Ulv took to thinking for a moment and shook her head.
"I have not, no. Do you have any on you?" Ulv replied, turning to Calypso with a warm smile.
"Indeed, right here in my pouch" Sun would then go to rummage around for said poo.

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Wed Mar 18, 2020 4:00 pm

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Enter Calypso

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Calypso did do a bit of a jump when the man suddenly appeared, but apart from that she behaved like she was looking at anyone else, her body relaxing as she looked towards him. Appearance didn't matter to the Danava, a person was a person and no manner of appearance changed that in her eyes. Though, the kind of aura he radiated, similar to the feeling she got from Ulv, did make butterflies form in her stomach, which probably didn't help the nausea at first but over a bit she used it to keep her mind off it,

"..Hi," Her voice was weary, a tired smile forming on her face as Ulv introduced him to her, and her to him. However, her weak smile soon turned into weak confusion, a puzzled look in her eyes as the man mentioned throwing poo at her,

"..Poo..? Wait.. Isn't that the brown stuff tha.. That.. Comes out of your lower area..?"

The young one was very visibly confused, tilting her head as she watched him dig through his bag, then looking to Ulv, "..Wha.. What does.. This have to do with poo?"

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[THEFROST]

Wed Mar 18, 2020 4:20 pm

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Calypso's confusion on the nature of poo seemed to also confuse Ulv and Sun. The latter of which looked to the former.
"She doesn't know what poo is" Sun commented, looking at Ulv.
"Demons are weird. Though, I am also surprised. You'll have to show me the box you stay in away from the rest of the world. It's been like three years now, basic topics should be mastered, kiddo" Ulv told Calypso, looking back to Sun.
"This is not going to work if she doesn't know what poo is. She has to have poo in her heart for this to work" Sun shook his head and took his long fingers out of the pouch. Surprisingly clean for what he claimed he was looking for. "We are going to need something else. Hmm, ok" he would walk up to Calypso and take a seat on a golden cloud so he was hovering at eye level. Then, he took Calypso's hands.

"For this to work, you will need to answer yourself four questions. The first, is dukkha. Are you suffering? Currently, one that would be almost sardonically easy to answer. The second, is samudaya, why are you suffering? One that is more different that it appears on the surface. The third, is nirodha, how can you solve your suffering? And finally, the fourth is magga, will you take the step upon the road to cease your suffering? After you answer these four, you have created a path for your suffering to end. And then you walk upon it. This act of healing is called Hao Ren Sho"

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Wed Mar 18, 2020 5:20 pm

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THE ROYAL ASTHAVON

Enter Calypso

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Calypso only got more confused as the two were surprised towards her lack of personal experience with poo. She was honestly really confused on why it mattered at all, but maybe this was some kind of wake up call to learn more about human bodies with how surprised the two were towards her on that subject, but.. Another time when she wasn't heaving and ill. The Danava just let out a groan,

"..Can we just.. Stop talking about poo?"

She sighed with some thankfulness that they'd move on, once again flinching and soon relaxing after when she had her hands held once more, frowning, "..Sorry."

As Sun Wukong explained the whole path, Calypso was put to thinking, looking progressively more and more unsure, soon exhaling,

"I mean, well, yeah, I'm... I'm.. Suffering.." She quickly turned, coughing away from him, "..Sorry. Well. As far as... Why.. I mean.."

She looked a bit hesitant, but shook her head, proceeding on to the next step,

"Well.. There's.. Algos freaking out... I let everyone down, I... I have to help my family, but they're way worse off than me, so... Then there's my race, everyone's suffering... This war, everyone's suffering.. It's just... I... I.."

Calypso looked gradually more and more worn the longer she reflected on what was going on, darkness trickling from the sides of her mouth as she only seemed to look more sick for a moment, before she shook her head and righted herself, ".. I.. I don't want those.. To just, stay problems.. I need to fix them.. I.. I have to.. Or everyone's just gonna.. Stay, suffering.. I have a lot of responsibility.."

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[THEFROST]

Wed Mar 18, 2020 5:31 pm

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"If you have so much responsibility, then you should start at the core of all of it; yourself. Center your soul and become aware of your Self. From there, all things will fall into place. Hao Ren Sho is powerful beyond compare if you hold true to your heart. But weaker than a mewling kitten if you won't take the first step" She told Calypso. Then she nodded to Sun, who would return a traditional bow and fly off on his cloud.

"Don't think of the problems, or the responsibility. Just think of the desire to fix it, and it will be fixed"

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Thu Mar 19, 2020 1:12 pm

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THE ROYAL ASTHAVON

Enter Calypso

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The young Asthavon sat hunched over as she mulled over the idea of Hao Ren Sho; she however felt pretty stuck on step two, thinking of numerous things that could be marked as 'suffering', and not being too certain on how to solve all of those external issues. They were all complicated, many having formed long before she was even born into the physical world, and so many factors were at play...

She then looked to Ulv as she spoke of needing to start at the Self, which quickly made the young one look visibly uncomfortable, biting her messy bottom lip. After weakly waving Sun Wukong goodbye, she looked to the side, hands tightening into fists.

"You... Aren't.. Wrong.. But.. Myself, dealing with myself... Is.."

Her head only lowered further, "I had the ability to understand others from birth, but... I don't... Understand myself.."

She sighed, her shoulders relaxing, "After my time in my early life, closing myself away, I've only ever thought of other people.. Like.. Huff.. Like I was in debt to them for ignoring their needs before.."

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[THEFROST]

Thu Mar 19, 2020 2:25 pm

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"Then don't"

Ulv was, as ever, direct and to the point. She wasn't going to argue, it wasn't her nature. She just offered and let them take their own decisions.
"If you don't care about yourself, then don't force it. If you want to neglect yourself for other people, then make that your Self. However you do it, just make sure that you know what you are doing. Whatever you do, there is nothing worse than not knowing who you are and why you are doing it"

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