Re: Empty Promises, Empty Emotions. [Ulv/ Demonica]

Sun Jun 02, 2019 4:46 pm

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Anime:Shingeki no Bahamut OST - Song: Chorus Of Despair

"No Ulv, you won't, because even if you hate me for it, I won't let you run away from this. She may have run, but she probably wanted you to go after her." Demonica's voice settled into softness as she sighed.

"Do you know why I seek to belong, In this world that hates and reviles me?" Demonica had never been forthright with her friend.

"It is because I, more than anyone, have seen the ugliness, and the beauty in this world. " Her lips showed a resigned smile as she studied her friend beneath her.

" I, who was branded a traitor of shadow fall and lived. I, who was branded a monster by the captain commanders lieutenant. I who fought Shadin yuudeshi. I who fought Ibiki Suika and was labeled a terrorist, have never had a place that I could belong to. " She stated plainly as she brought a hand to cup the side of Ulv's cheek.

" I have been used as a pawn, have been discarded many times. I have overcome failure after failure, with my weary bones I have resisted adversity. I have lived through all of it." Her voice was a soft murmur. Her hand was calloused, yet soft as it continued to caress Ulv's face.

" It is because of that though, that I fell in love with humanity. It is because of that, that I came to your harbor before the war, to gauge your strength. We are eternal, and unless killed will live for millions of years, as empires fade away, as the ages come and go, until everything is long forgotten. Even then, will we continue to be alive, to think and feel.

"It is because of that, that one fact, that the memories we make are so important. It is also why regret becomes a poison that will eat you alive. " Demonica spoke candidly.

" I am not human, I do not feel like a human. I don't even need to breathe. I cannot touch another, I cannot be touched, even if you think you can empathize with my existence, even if you can feel my emotions, you will never know what I feel. I know you, you probably think that giving her space is the best option. " Demonica's voice was dripping with hate, but it was not hatred for ulv.

"But it is merely a weakness upon your part. She is waiting for you, yet you continue to hide away in this filth and depravity. That is what I don't understand." Demonica's eyes lacked empathy for ulv.

" If you shy away from problems, how can you ever truly come to understand hardship. Because ulv, in my eyes your resolve is merely a way of covering up your own insecurities. It's laughable, petulant, and spits in the face of the one that loves you." Demonica gently patted her cheek.

" You think I'm above chasing you, breaking your houses, shattering your homes, you think I'm above fighting you, over and over again, until you snap out of your stupor? You think that running away elsewhere, and abandoning the harbor that you protect in a world war will save you? " Demonica was sad, sad that her friend just couldn't figure out the truth that lay before her.

"It is because I love this world, and humanity so much, that I will not allow you to forsake your most integral part. Even if you come to hate me, even then, I will drag you, kicking and screaming. " Demonica's eyes glimmered.

" You know why I keep up this barrier? right?" Demonica let some of the barriers that protected her skin drop, the effect of her hand causing numerous lacerations to form on Ulv's face for the brief contact that transpired between the two.

"I am different than you. I am a demon remember? The hated creature of this world. In the eyes of many, I am no greater than vermin." She sighed.

"So, do you want to become like me? Merely existing, and not living. Because that is what will happen, and eventually all your emotions will turn to hate, all your love with wither and die, and you will be just a husk, alone. " Demonica sighed.

"You think I do this because I hate you? That's nonsense, I do this because You are doing the exact thing that Happened to me. I do not want you to live a life of regrets. "

Sun Jun 02, 2019 5:17 pm

ULV AUBER | THE BURNING HEART

Empty Promises, Empty Emotions. [Ulv/ Demonica] - Page 2 JCRrxmK

She had finally calmed down. Not that Demonica ever really got the idea of patience, everything was smash and crash and break and rend. But, there was a major reason why Ulv stayed here, in debachery and excess. And now that Demonica was of slightly sounder mind, Ulv could explain. She could also stop humouring Demonica and stepping lightly on her pride. When Demonica's unleashed hand was placed on Ulv's cheek, she gave it everything she had. Power unbridled, power unrelenting. It was an immensity several times the magnitude that she had when they fought last time. And since Ulv rarely released anything more than 55% of her total force, and even that was in a short, personal bubble, it would probably come as a shock.

The immense power of her reiatsu buffer would fend off the blades like a wall fends off a knife, and her body would change, as it had morphic properties when fed spiritual power. Muscles slimmed down and her hair grew long and blonde. Skin grew pale and a Perfect Black dress formed around her, the solidified embodiment of her released power. It being so well moulded with her soul, her Tulpa manifested it rather than keeping it metaphysical, and the touch from Beowulf gave it the colour so black the world seemed darker by comparison. Though Ulv took off the strange headdress as soon as it formed, and held it in her hands.

"Ok. Time for talk. Which should have happened in the first place, but yea. I know how you feel. Mostly because of empathic powers and a natural connection that gives me the key to every part of your mind in stark clarity. The same the other way around, something you should have really tried before storming in and kidnapping me but, digress. The first night, I wanted to give her time to deal with everything herself. Chasing after her then would have led to anger boiling over, and I know more than any being in the omniverse what Fury can do to a person.

But then...every day after that I visited, every day after that I felt a swell of pride that you were there, but it was drowned by the oceans I felt from Rakki. Being an Empath is not always a good thing. And, I couldn't handle actually seeing her. So I just hid in the sky, drowning in her despair. I don't know what to do, I am not the woman who can help her. She's been alone for a thousand years in a society that tells her to look pretty and serve her people before anything else. To be a good wife for some guy who only cares what child he can get out of her. That, that isn't something I can just help and love her at the same time. I need the distance so I can help them reach their objective standpoint, the place where they have true choice on how to proceed. If I colour that choice at all, it is no longer a choice and I go against my very nature.

And that nature is such a hilarious dichotomy. I claim to embody Hope for the future and passion for life, while being the single most Angry thing ever made and driven to near insanity by my own set of emotions. I have to help everyone because only then can I live in the world and not be assailed by everyone's fears and doubts, all the time. So after watching over Rakki, I came back here and trying to burn away the ocean of grief that I felt. I can't help her come to grips with her feelings while I can't handle it myself"

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Sun Jun 02, 2019 5:58 pm

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" You don't have to be hope. Even if you do not help others. Others will be there to take your place. Ulv, that is not what matters now. If you truly knew everything that went on in my mind, you'd know I choose not to read your thoughts. Just because I can, does not mean it solves the problem." Demonica sighed, unperturbed by Ulv's display of power.

"If you could feel her despair, could you not also feel the love that radiates for you? Honestly Ulv, think about it, why would she call for you, if she did not want you there? " Demonica frowned and covered Ulv's mouth with her palm.

"Just shut up and listen, I don't need to hear your words, because we don't need words. You know How I feel, and I know how you feel, just listen and do so with your mind, not the power that you rely on. "

"I envy you, you have a home, a life, and someone who loves you dearly. Those people if you can hear their voices you can hear their love for you. You are not the savior of the world. you are not the symbol of hope. Despite the fact that you wish not to admit it, you are just as unsure and afraid as anyone. Just for a moment, think about it. If Niflheim did not want you there, she would have probably done far worse than just smack you. It's alright to be afraid. It's why you are the most human person I've met. " Demonica said, as she exhaled.

"The funny thing about you, Is you do know everything, but you still can't find the answers. You know the emotions of others, you know their deepest thoughts, you know why they do things, yet you never truly take that into consideration. Because you know these things, you don't take the time to think about their deeper meaning.

You hold many of the flaws of your original. Unlike her though, you lack the capacity to throw caution to the wind. You refuse to do it. Therefore, If you can read my thoughts, or rather, if you aren't drunk still, you will know that what I'm about to do is done with your best interests in mind. You aren't running away, neither of us wants that. That is also why I will tell you this. "

Demonica spoke faintly, as a silver door opened in the sky behind them. A door that Ulv should know well. As Demonica rose, she would pick her friend up, dusting her off lightly. She'd make eye contact with her faintly.

"You're just a woman, one that is hopelessly in love. So go make up, and stop being a contrite ass about it." With a sigh, Demonica would shove her through the silver portal, which would lead to Rakki's bedroom. It was a portal that would close as soon as Ulv flew through to the other side, to the sight of a certain someone staring at her wordlessly.

Demonica would stare at the turbid waters for a bit, before sighing, turning around to walk towards the harbor once more.

Sun Jun 02, 2019 6:28 pm

ULV AUBER | THE BURNING HEART

Ulv would listen to Demonica, not that she had much of a choice really. It was listen or be Befriended. And Nanoha would have been a better series if she punched people rather than just using a magic staff to do magic stuff. Wouldn't have been a Magical Girl series though. Eventually, Ulv could speak, and she did. Because she liked doing it.

"It's hard to see something I have no experience with. I don't, don't even understand why she loves me. And, I have to be like this, I have to be strong and unyielding and mighty and all that shit. If other people see that I am afraid, how will I ever inspire them to not be afraid? If I am not hopeful, how will others feel hope? As much as you might not see it and as much as I don't really want it, people do look up to me as their saviour. And as much as you probably hate it, they look up to you as well. You might try to keep out of the public eye, but I point it in your direction as much as I can. Demonica Nightfang, protector of the Harbour. Everyone here knows you. You've got a home, a life, and a lot of people who could love you dearly if you gave them the chance. I put myself on a pedastal when I announced to the world I was going to save it, so I did this to myself. But you have a chance for life here"

Ulv would always try to help her friends. Even after they had battered her, and then even after they had tricked her and pushed her into a door that led into Rakki's bedroom. Which, was super awkward and Di-Di was so getting a thunk for that later!
"Uhh....hey. I can, leave if you want. Being pushed through a hole is not the most gracious way to re-enter your life"

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Fri Jun 07, 2019 5:35 pm

Niflheim P.
The Ancient Quincy

Song:Hikari [Kingdom Hearts 2016] - Artist: Sam Yung

Rakki Yagurashi Date looked at the figure who had spilled into her room. The leader of the Quincy looked worse for wear, the dark rings under her eyes showed that she hadn't been sleeping. The red puffiness showed that she had been crying, the dullness in her eyes showed she still deep inside was grieving. "..Oh, it looks like she kept her promise." Rakki noted dully as the silver portal shut. She looked empty, and yet she took a few moments to register the other person in the room. who it was. When she did, her eyes widened faintly, and her lips parted, and yet no words left them.

What could she say? What could she do? How did she even feel? All of these conflicting emotions fought ravenously within her chest, and she fought the urge to flee. Ulv was her greatest happiness, but also her greatest despair, and it was eating her alive. She was confused and scared; was she led on? Was this all just, some sick joke? Honestly, she did not know the answer, for once she was unsure. She had faced down the queen of demons without batting an eyelid, but the thought of this woman in front of her belonging to anyone else, or loving anything else terrified her in a way nothing else did. Not for the reason, you might think though. It was not because of jealousy, but of fear that these thoughts roamed inside her head. Fear of the emptiness, fear of the loneliness that she had endured for so long. What used to be normal, was now suffocating for her. It was like seeing an icy land blossom into a verdant, vibrant spring, only to be plunged back into eternal winter once more.

She was not selfless, she was far from the perfect being that she showed herself to be. As she was learning, she could cry, she could be angry, she could be scared, she could be lonely, and she could be sad. She was learning that she was still as human as she was the day that she ceased to be one; ironic right? She had for so long been perfect, unfeeling, calculative and strong. She had become a beacon for those around her, a bastion that they could reside in. That, however, had been for them, not for her. It had always been for them.

What about now? Were these emotions for the people she served? No, no they weren't. These emotions that ransacked her, broke her, and shaped her, were of a far more selfish nature. She wanted to be able to keep Ulv to herself, not because she felt some need to control her, but because she couldn't afford to lose her. It was a sentiment borne of purely selfish reasons, in a rather selfless woman. Funny right?

Still, Rakki would unbundle herself, taking the blanket that had wrapped around her like a cocoon and threw it in the corner. She exhaled and walked across the room before she had come to stand in front of Ulv.

"You know, I'm actually quite selfish, right? Despite the selfless facade, I put up, I wish to be a princess, I wish to be coddled, I wish to be showered with adoration. " Rakki's voice was quiet and hoarse, as collapsed onto her knee's and let her forehead rest against ulv's breast.

" I wish to be touched, I wish to be loved, and I wish to love in return. I found it odd, the fact that beyond the kisses, and the hugs that you never tried to take it any further. It made me feel.. Undesirable, but I still put up with it, because I love you. " Her voice was drained, and dry as her fingers curled into Ulv's clothing.

" But it makes sense, you were having sex with other people. You'll have sex with others, but you won't touch me huh?" Rakki's voice shook faintly, as her fingers balled into small fists against Ulv.

" That's what hurts me the most. If you had needed to release your urges, you could've told me. I wanted you to tell me, but you couldn't figure it out I guess." A small laugh escaped Rakki's lips, the sound of self-depreciation, and loathing easy to pick up.

"You know, as I've sat here, as I've gone through the motions, I've thought about hating you. Oh god, it would be so much easier if I did. I could rationalize away the pain, I could lock it in a box and go back to the self I've been for a thousand years, but that just isn't how love works. It eats at you, It doesn't let you forget, it pounds against you and makes you ugly. " The soft sobs that left her mouth, and the tears that fell down Rakki's face showed the pain she was feeling. The frustration she was feeling.

"To make it worse, I told you how I really felt, I asked you to marry me, and only then did I learn about this. Even if you are having sex with others just to do so, do you know how that makes me feel? I felt like I had no sex appeal, that maybe that was why you'd seek out others for it. " Those small fists she made would gently bang on Ulv's chest, a faint sniffle raising from her nose.

" I thought about just annuling the engagement, but, my happiness is far more important to me than the pain you are causing me right now, at this moment. Maybe you don't understand how relationships work, or maybe it was my fault for not making it clear that this was a mutually exclusive relationship. So. " She'd exhale, a faint hiccup escaping her lips as she leaned back , meeting Ulv's eyes with her own.

"I'm going to let you explain yourself, So I can understand Why. You better have a good reason Ulv. I don't think I could bare it if you did it just because you wanted to.

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Fri Jun 07, 2019 6:15 pm

ULV AUBER | THE BURNING HEART

Ulv returned to her normal form, the hair retracting into her hair as she did, and then she was silent. Quips went unquipped, glibness went undisplayed, and generally the woman was silent. Which was ominous, from anyone who knew Ulv and her love of talking. Even being battered to a pulp by Demonica, Ulv ran her mouth. And yet, here and now, she just stood there, just watched and did nothing, said nothing, until Rakki was finished. Then, she rose a hand to Rakki's cheek and stroked it gently, smiling softly to her beloved little Quincy. The one person she had truly loved in this world.

"I told you exactly what you asked for when I told you the first time. But, I guess you missed half of it for the other half. I love you, Rakki. I love you more than anything in all the realms, and as a being of at least 11% solid passion, you can't begin to imagine how much that is. But to repeat. I feel awkward and soft around you. I don't want to hurt you or do anything that might do anything untowards. I want to be gentle with you, to kiss you, and hold you and just that. The problem with sex, is it's fun. The fact that it is just something for the hell of it and occasionally because I feel I need to understand the other better.

Sexuality is something that is me. Down past my bones. And I want you to be given more than just a quick kick. I want you to mean more to me than that. I want to love you, and having you in my bed while I twist and tease your mind and body to my own desire, doesn't really feel like love. It feels like junk food,when I want you to be my four course gourmet meal. You suffer from the fact that I love you. And I don't want to spoil this love with something that is a throwaway antic to pass the time and get some sniggers. You don't need to love someone to have sex with them. And you don't need to have sex with someone that you love. I don't see you as someone to have sex with, because I love you. Because I want to marry you.

I am not getting it somewhere else. I just never saw you as someone to get it in the first place. Your sex appeal doesn't matter to me, I don't love you because you are cute, or because you've got big tits and a fat arse. I love you because you were the first and only person to care about Mirja when she was falling apart. And you never pushed her away despite having so many reasons to do so. And you retained that deep, unparalleled care even after she died and I was born. Your very first act was to risk your own life to help me. There is no passion for you, Rakki. Passion is a flame. It burns hot and then goes out until the next time it is lit. You are the Core of my Sun. You are the reason I can light up the world so brightly, for so long. And when you are gone, I will take everyone within a trillion miles with me.

The trouble you have is that you have lived a thousand years within a block of ice, and so you can not comprehend the heat of the Flame that burns within me. You think the whole world is cool and icy, and judge all based on that"

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Wed Jun 26, 2019 4:20 pm

Niflheim P.
The Ancient Quincy

Song:Hikari [Kingdom Hearts 2016] - Artist: Sam Yung

Honestly, it didn't make any sense to her. Why... did it hurt so much? Why did she feel this regret that bubbled up within her chest? Was it because the words that graced her ears were horrid, and yet wonderful at the same time? Or was it because she believed that the path that she was to take was a folly, fake happiness that had overtaken the duty that she had once bore? Or was it because she knew that as imperfect as Ulv might seem, that the love that lingered within her bosom was pure, and yet broken at the same time. The fact that they both were so broken, irreparably so was enough for her to draw solace. In the yawning expanse of eternity, rarely so was there another that would stand with you until it's ending.

When the empires that now stood crumbled, and all that was left was ash, would then would she still look upon her loves lips, and smile in the end? Niflheim softly cupped her loves jaw and studied her willful eyes. The smile that adorned her face was a sad one, and yet it's upturned fringes conveyed her hope. Hope that maybe in time the fragments of her heart would mend. Right now though, as tears slipped silently from her eyes, her thumb continued to stroke Ulv's jaw.

"I... hope that in the end, we continue to remain together. When the worlds we've built have crumbled to ash, and the golden era's we've hailed from have long since been forgotten." Her words were bittersweet, and she brought her forehead to rest against Ulv's chest.

"But right now, whether you've intended it or not, you've harmed me. I don't think you do it intentionally, but my heart is broken. These tears I shed were caused by you. But... even so." Niflheim giggled softly, as she quashed the faint tremors that wracked her body. She'd look so frail, a far cry from the strong leader that many sought for her to be.

" I feel relief." Her words were but a whisper. Frail.

" Relief that I know that you haven't been simply leading me on."

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Wed Jun 26, 2019 5:13 pm

ULV AUBER | THE BURNING HEART

"Golden Era? I hail from the third World War. Or the fourth, depending on if you mean me or Mirja. But, yea. I am not going anywhere, and neither are you. Get used to immortality, darling. If you were going to get gray hairs, you'd have done it long ago. So you are stuck with me" Ulv took Rakki's hand and warmed it up with her own. Ulv's body was always warm, a comfortable warmth that made the cold dark feel not so cold, not so dark anymore. Ulv was a soft beacon, a gentle encouragement towards the future.

She would then pick Rakki up, and take her to the bedroom.
"I am sorry for hurting you. I thought it best to tell the truth where we were, rather than let you find out some day of your own accord. But, I shall be here as long as it takes to fix your heart. To pick up the pieces that a thousand years of neglect and obligation. To put you back together so you are not driven by societal demands so out of date they are quite literally medieval. You've given a thousand years to the Quincy. If they can't handle themselves by now, maybe you need to let them go? A coddled child never matures, after all"

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Fri Aug 23, 2019 12:05 pm

Niflheim P.
The Ancient Quincy

Song:Hikari [Kingdom Hearts 2016] - Artist: Sam Yung

Air cascaded out from her full lips, while the expression upon Niflheim's face remained saddened; yet, behind the sadness, there was a gleam of contemplation. Her luminous gaze, ethereal and mercurial, continued to study Ulv's face. There was remorse within those eyes of hers, yet it was clear the remorse wasn't for what had been done, but instead due to the outcome of those actions. It had nothing to do with the action itself, and maybe that was just the nature of who Ulv was.

Could she learn to accept that? The difference that lay in their perceptions; between morals and beliefs? Deep within her heart, she wanted to get even with her, she wanted her to gaze upon the effect of her actions, she would stay with her, but eventually, this transgression would lead to hatred if the scale was left unbalanced. Niflheim understood the heart better than most, after all, she had for a thousand years used that understanding to become what the vandenreich had needed most. To neglect one's urges, that individual would have to know those very urges at an extremely intimate level.

Which was why as Niflheim's hand trailed away from Ulv's jaw, she stood up glancing down at her from behind her veiled lashes, a captivating smile creeping upon her lips, while withdrew several paces from Ulv. Her expression remaining open, she would exhale once more before she spoke the words that came from the bottom of her heart.

"I forgive you Ulv, and I will not forsake you, however."

Niflheim's hands came to rest upon her face as if she was taking a moment to collect herself. It was such a casual motion that covered both her eyes that it wouldn't arouse suspicion. Yes, that would be what Ulv would have as an eternal reminder. Niflheim would never truly gaze upon her again, at least not visually.

"To make sure that this love never truely turns to hatred, I must balance the scales. I must appease the fledgling unrest within my own heart. "

Niflheim said in a soft tone, as she imbedded the concept of destruction within the reishi that filtered into her retina. It was relatively quick after that, the destruction of her eyes happened in the breadth of a second, and all Ulv would feel from it was a concentration of reishi momentarily gathering at her eyes, before they were irreversibly damaged.

It was at that moment that the world plunged into permanent darkness, and in that darkness her heart found solace. She knew that it would be something that Ulv could never truly forget, an eternal reminder. So once her hands fell, a peaceful expression once more graced her lips as she made her way back over to Ulv by sensing the intermittent changes in reishi density in the room. Once she made her way back to Ulv, once more she would bring her arms around her love, bringing her forehead to rest against Ulv's own, her lips curved into a gentle smile.

"Now my heart is at peace. I love you Ulv. "

Niflheim said softly before bringing her lips to her loves own. Sure, the price for this solace was that she would never gaze upon the azure skies again, however, compared to the price of her heart being at peace? It was a very small price to pay. However, most likely Ulv would be able to figure out the price that Niflheim paid, a reminder that would last an eternity.

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Fri Aug 23, 2019 12:33 pm

ULV AUBER | THE BURNING HEART

Ulv was, at least in this situation, less a woman and more solidified energy and control. Mostly out of necessity, because when you had unbridled Passion and Infinite Fury bubbling away in your heart, and then came into such an emotionally charged situation, there was a very good chance there would be no more continent if she lost control of either side of herself. Such rigid self-control, however, did make it hard to really get emotional impact in the case of, for example, your wife deciding that being blind was a much better option than being able to see what is going on.

Still, Ulv was the Totally Really The Danava Of Chosing How To Live Your Life, so if this was what Rakki wanted to do - and clearly it was considering how much effort she went to do it - Ulv would treat it like it was a natural thing. If she wanted to take away her sight so her heart was at peace, then that was what she wanted to do. Ulv had no right to say anything against it.
"I'm glad you will not forsake me. But not forsaking me doesn't mean I am just going to stop trying'ta drag ya into the 25th century with epic Ulv Arts. Be prepared or popcorn and musical numbers" Ulv would then pick Rakki up and take her to the nearby couch and sit down with her.

"Though don't come bitching to me in a week when all the inconveniences of being blind rear their ugly heads" Ulv told her, pulling in a blanket so they could sleep. It had been a rough week, and Ulv needed to just, chill for a bit and let her liver and Hvit work together. "Also, obviously do come to me if this ever does become an issue. I've got a few ideas"

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