Re: Can you take it? [Shizuo/GameDragon:Private]

Mon Jan 25, 2016 7:29 pm

Artist: Katawa Shoujo OST - Song: Moment of Decision - Word Count: 1244

Peace.

It was something that Kayta was soon to obtain, something that... That would be amazing to not only her, but her body right now. Every step continued to bring pain throughout her body, the feeling similar to every bone within being ground into a paste whilst her body was still moving. It was something that... Kayta's never had to deal with before. She was greedy, and even borderline spoiled if it weren't' for her harsh upbringing. Just the fact that she was going through all of this pain to simply advance boggled her senses, and only toyed with her emotions. Thoughts of doubt were easily able to permeate throughout her currently weakened mind, suggesting and hinting... At times even screaming she wasn't ever going to succeed, and would never be able to take the throne.

But someone still shined through all of the doubt. It was something that she's never felt before, something that... That the center of her being feel warm and fuzzy. It was hope. Hope that through a trial such as this, she could finally take over the Western Kingdom. Her origin was Voracity... But that didn't mean that she didn't have a heart. She cared all too much about the Sugiuran people and even herself. She needed to take the throne to make sure no one corrupt would... To make sure that only the best could be achieved for the kingdom as a whole. Not only for her pride as a Sugiuran, but her pride as a Leonhardt. She had been a part of a proud family with great power...

But they've fallen from grace, her mother retreating from the Western Kingdom to hide and try to live a peaceful life. She never met her mother, but she certainly knew that she was one of the reasons that her family name had been tarnished... But she could understand why. Many search for a normal life, and that's what Kayta wanted to protect. Many Sugiuran must not want to fight or train for the threats that will arrive, but they're forced too. They have to say goodbye to loving families simply to die in a war that they never belonged in. The Sugiuran of Voracity longed for a family.. But she knew she could never have it, instead, she could be given the power to make sure that others could keep their families. It was something that made her feel... Unique, and able to make a change.

That is why she continued to fight, her blood boiling as she finally reached Animum. The woman hadn't even noticed, continuing to step forwards until she walked right into the woman herself. At the faintest touch, her legs gave way, her entire body falling limp as her weight shifted unto Animum. She wasn't heavy at all, and with her strength, it'd be easy to both lift her up and support or... Or even snap her like a twig, right here, right now. For now, however... She remained limp. All feelings within her legs were gone, only a numb, dull throbbing. She hadn't realized, but her body had pumped enough adrenaline through her blood that she hadn't even felt her bones cracking under pressure, fractures forming throughout the bones within her legs, just barely avoiding major arteries.

She was able to feel one thing... A gentle, soft touch. It was something the woman had never felt before, not from her father, nor any of the people that had raised her. It was... Both frightening and comforting. She was naturally going to be weary of what she didn't know, but a feeling like this could be welcomed. Her body rested upon the being's own, head slumping just past her shoulders as bloodshot, strained eyes stared towards the ground. Her vision was starting to fade, blackness surrounding her field of view with hints of red being laced within. Her body wasn't meant to take this type of abuse. Her body was weak, frail... But stronger. Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and Kayta hoped that this wouldn't be in vein. She hoped that this wouldn't waste her time and lead to more unrest forming within the Sugiuran people... She hoped that she wouldn't die here.

Words were spoken by Animum, barely understood by the Sugiuran due to her body starting to shut down vital senses one by one to prepare her for the inevitable fall. She... They were nice words, blunt, yet kind. Words that she had rarely received before, words that... That gave her more meaning to even fighting for the Western Kingdom, to even try for the throne. These words only further distracted her, numb body still emitting the faint throbs throughout her to show it was hurting. Her senses had been dulled enough that the woman hadn't even felt fingers sliding along her flesh, gently tracing bruises and wounds, grazing along splits in flesh where the pressure had caused her skin to rupture. Slowly, these wounds began to heal, one by one. Flesh knitting together, bruises starting to fade. Something was being left behind though, scars, marks of her trials here.

At the cost of surviving... A scar or two wasn't even bad, hell, some considered them sexy... She showed off a lot of skin, so maybe this would help her with her whole 'show-off' attitude when trying to fight... But no matter the case, she couldn't even chuckle when an amusing thought such as that passed her mind, damaged eyes trailing over to fingers sliding along her body. At this point... She hadn't even noticed that Animum had placed her against the ground and was healing her fully, energy pouring into her being to help stabilize and help her...

Wounds began to heal, bones slowly fixing themselves through snapping into place... And senses returning. With the return of her senses, came the returning of pain... And came the return of her consciousness. Her eyes began to slowly return to normal, as lips parted to howl out in pain. Her entire body tensing as already sore muscles flexed, bones that were just fixed aching with a faint dull. She was being fixed, and getting better... But fuck, it hurt. It hurt so damn much. With her howl of pain finished, she laid on the ground, eyes staring up towards Animum, chest slowly rising and falling with each breath. Soft hands had rested upon her head, and congratulatory words were given...

Kayta's lips slowly curled upwards into a smile, not one to show how cocky she was... But one to show actual pride in herself at accomplishing this. Everyone had to start somewhere... And she couldn't just simply take the throne and expect to survive things like this... So for now, she was proud of herself, and happy that she found someone who taught her just how far she was from ready to reclaiming the throne.

"S... Shortly? N-No coffee break?" A faint chuckle, followed by a grimace of pain, was given out by the Suiguran. She found her little joke humerous enough for a chuckle, which led to her body moving, which led to the sore ache returning. She could power through it if she tried or was given some time... But right now, things were still healing, fixing themselves. With the energy from her new taskmaster, she should be up and running in a much shorter amount of time than even she would expect.

"I... Fuck, this hurts a lot. But uh.... Y-Yeah. When you think I'm ready, I-I'll get up. Kay?"

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Tue Jan 26, 2016 9:12 pm

Artist: MGQ NG+ OST - Song: Erubetie Battle - Word Count: 931

Kayta was pretty content with herself at the moment, glad to have a good moment like this... At least until Animum spoke a few words that would elicit a frightful reaction. 'Who said I was going to let you up, huh?' Those were words that... Really scared her at that one moment. She was at her weakest and most vulnerable point right now, and the realization that hit her was obvious through the widening of her eyes and dilating of her pupils. Her gaze was set upon Animum before shifting over to her limbs... No weapon, so what was she going to do? The answer came relatively quickly for her.

If it were not for Animum not using the tip of her foot, Kayta probably would have died from the kick shattering bones right into vital organs. Instead, a skillful kick led to only a great amount of pain being transferred over to Kayta through a single blow. Her body was launched right off of the ground and sent -zooming- through the air, limbs flailing during the process as pain welled up within her once more. Eyes widened, focussing on the area all around... This was faster than her best, exceeding even Mach One... But hey, she couldn't fall that easily, now could she? This was a surprise attack for a reason and FUCK did it hurt... And did it work.

Kayta's one strength that surpassed everything was her speed, actually allowing her to recover from this powerful blow. Her body spun about within the air, limbs shifting about to try and regain some control. Air movement was difficult without Air Armor, and she had already used it just to get farther in the first trial... Hell, she popped almost all of her good abilities to survive that. Kayta at least had enough speed and control to bring her arms right up to her chest, legs curling up to form a type of ball as the woman began to careen towards the ground. Her body slammed right into the dirt, pain rattling throughout her very being as the blunt force from the impact was enough to force a scream to erupt forth from her, echoing throughout the area as it was hard enough with the kick to draw blood from within, spurting past her lips to lead to a few, small splatters against the ground.

She was still alive at least, body quickly uncurling as she scrambled up to her feet, standing up tall... Just in time to see something move quickly, almost a blur to her as there was a sharp pain across her cheek. She couldn't see the blade, but the bright colors of Animum were visible enough for the Sugiuran. She was... Did she just try to cut her? No, it worked... She could already feel something warm drip down her cheek as another wince was seen by her face scrunching up for a moment. Animum was already in momentum, quicker than Kayta at this moment as she was still trying to get her bearings from what had just happened... Another slash was felt, much more vicious and painful this time as a yelp of pain was given out, blade trailing across breasts to lead to deep wounds within them, blood leaking out in order to trail down her chest.

Before she could even take a deep breath to shout out, an elbow was slammed against her form, knocking the woman right into the ground with a loud thud. Fuck, all of that was not only excessive, but also painful... And pretty cool if Kayta wasn't the one being hit with all of this. A command was soon given, along with a training regimen. She... Kayta was confident in her speed, but this woman seemed to surpass her in every aspect, so it was going to be quite the trial to even last a fair while against her. But who was Kayta to turn down a challenge? She had a lot more to fight for, so there was no point in backing down now.

"Alright, first off, the -fuck-!? You don't go for the boobs, that's... FUCK it hurts and now I'm getting blood everywhere. Secondly-" As the word escaped her lips, wrists flicked out to the sides of her body, arms raised to the sides of her body with hands facing awkwardly outwards, Hope and Despair appearing within her grasp once again. They had sorta left her grasp earlier, but now? She had to use them. "Bring it on, I always did better as an underdog anyways~!" Kayta's lips began to move, faint whispering of 'Surrounding Shield' heard before each of her weapons had begun to fill with Sugi magic.

One moment, they were simply guns, the next? Coming forth from the barrel of each one was a barrier made of pure Sugiuran magic, yellow in coloration and roughly the size of a trash-can lid. They were fairly sized, and seemed to work for a fair defense. Both weapons were held out in front of her, one of the shields held to her general chest region, ready to be raised to protect her face as the other... Remained at her side, fingers grasping the Uzi tightly as the barrier only shined. It wasn't hard to tell that she was more prepared for deflecting rather than keeping a heavy defense, legs already shifting slightly, one leg pulled back with the other in front of her, standing upon it's toes. Muscles within her body already began to tense, preparing for the task master to release her assault.

"Come on then! I'm ready, so don't hold back!"

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Wed Jan 27, 2016 11:34 pm

Artist: MGQ OST - Song: ♪ FaytxStay ~ Shitennou - The Four Heavenly Knights - ♪ ( v.4) [ Monster Girl Quest Remix ] - Word Count: 2026

Don't hold back.

Those were the words that Kayta did say... She didn't want it easy, and honestly, she thought she needed the hardest training possible, even if it would bring her near death. She was getting reedy once more, her pride starting to glare rather obnoxiously. It was a trait that would be difficult to beat out of her due to her origin being that of voracity. What was she to do? She had survived the previous trial, so it couldn't be that difficult, right? Welll... She almost literally killed herself just -getting- to Animum, not even with her actively pursuing her, only releasing her energy.

The realization that Kayta had fucked up royally slowly yet surely began to creep upon her face. She was smart, she was talented, but her fucking pride would always be her downfall until it was beat into her enough times to askew the teachings of her father and take on a role much better for even just being a decent living being. Really now, how -was- she going to end up taking the throne if she was going to try being -this- cocky? Was she just going to rope the nation into something prematurely before they were ready? Kayta's intelligence had a weird way of working sometimes... Letting her catch on that something she was doing was horrifically wrong just a bit too late, and now this led to the release of Animum's true power.

A slash of great magnitudes was let loose from the woman's blade, tearing through not only the air, but even the skies above. It was a sight that definitely caught Kayta's attention, forcing her head to turn over to see an opening in clouds that Kayta knew she'd never reach the levels needed to part- Welll... She could, right now actually, but it'd never be on the same level as she had just seen. Animum... Animum was going to kill her at this rate, she really way. She had just told a being this powerful to not hold back, what was she even -thinking-?! She was thinking... Well, honestly she wasn't even exactly thinking of the scene itself or the training directly, but more-so how she needed more power, she needed to train as hard as she could to eventually take the throne, but how can she do that if she's going to get herself killed before she can even reach it?

"I deserve this, I honestly do at this point. And uh, guessing sorry isn't gonna make this ass-beating any less painful, is it?"

She had at least started to catch on to the fact that her being a cunt would lead to her being treated like one, getting absolutely fucked over. Eyes returned to Animum to see the woman already turning into something that would definitely bring nightmares to Kayta's dream. Her entire face had been shrouded in darkness, the absence of light seen upon it as she seemed... Almost sadistic at this point. It was hard to tell for Kayta if this little part would really be training, or just Animum getting annoyed at her behavior. No matter the case, she had to prepare. She had already popped almost every one of her most powerful abilities, leading to a... Well, very difficult time a head of her.

Her body braced itself, muscles beginning to tense as she awaited Animum's assault... She definitely didn't have to wait long, eyes widening as the impressive display of speed had caught Kayta entirely off-guard, rendering her unable to bring up a shield to defend herself. The blade that was infused with great amounts of power had found itself sailing towards her side, colliding harshly with her body with enough strength to cause a burst of wing to erupt forth. Kayta barely even had time to let out a scream of pain, feeling her insides almost crush against the attack, bones feeling like they were very well shattered, especially ribs, as she was sent flying outwards. Body feeling just like a rag-doll as it soared through the air.

Her body wasn't even prepared to take the next hit, foot of the speedy Taskmaster was applied right to her chin, forcing her mouth to remain shut and unable to let out a scream as Kayta's entire being was in heavy pain, racking through all of her limbs. Her ribs felt like they were mush at this point, and now her chin felt as if it were completely shattered.. She didn't -have- the durability to take these blows without something breaking within her every time, or something at least feeling that way. She was hopeful that her chin wasn't destroyed at this point... There was no immediate bones bursting through flesh, so she had to have been okay at this point.

Her body was left to soar upwards into the air, her entire being rattled with pain and unable to even gain control... But she did have one trump card, one final trick up her sleeve that she could use to at least show she wasn't utterly useless in a situation like this. She was only left with a split second reaction, the finest of timings to have this work... Her eyes couldn't track Animum at all, but her mind could. Senses began to go off as she had gotten used to Animum's sonida to tell where the energy was heading, and it was heading right above her. Her body already began to prepare itself, energy reserves that were strained within Kayta already starting to flare outwards, being heavily tapped into as she used an ability from her first release, a skill that she could barely use in her base form, one that took a heavy amount of energy from her and led to her being unable to use anything similar until she could recover fully.

She wasn't quick enough... Her one strongest ability, her strongest skill, speed... Wasn't quick enough. Perhaps in her first release state with her Air Armor, she could keep up, but without it? She couldn't last. A powerful, double-fisted blow had been sent towards her mid-section, knuckles slamming into her chest as Kayta's lips were forced to part, eyes widening as blood spurtted forth, splattering along her own lips and even her cheeks as the wounds all over leaked more of her life force... Wound across her breasts suddenly bursting with blood, her cheek following the same pattern as did anywhere else with a cut. She felt like she was going to break...

Her ability was used too late, her body being sent downwards as she finally used Warp once... Her short range teleport once, her one chance at avoiding the final blow... Was used to bring her closer to the ground. Animum could tell the girl tried to time it, but she just wasn't fast enough to pop it before the blow. With her body closer to the ground, the impact came quicker and nearly shattered her entire body, lodging herself within the ground hard enough to form a crater around her... It hurt, she really did feel broken as her eyes remained shut for the time being, body too damaged to let her just recover from a blow like this... She couldn't even see, but she could sense the destruction all around her. Pure blasts of reiatsu being shot forth all around her, colliding with the ground and decimating the dirt to show off her power further, to show was Kayta was incapable of doing... To show that she couldn't even contest her in her full form.

She wasn't going to be cocky anymore, at least not to the point of where it was harmful... maybe just a little pride- No... She can't even have that at this point. Her entire body felt broken, battered, and bruised... Animum could see her body trying to move, muscles tensing but... Unable to even lift herself upwards, gasps of pain and struggled breathing coming forth from lips covered in her own blood as she started to speak. Each of her words were audibly strained, followed by gasps for breath after every sentence...

"...I... I'll stop... I'll stop... I.. I wanted to see your best... I wanted... I needed to get stronger, -fuck-... Just... -fuck- me this hurts so much... I wanted to see your best so I could train against what I'd have to fight... So I can understand what I'm really up against and maybe get strong enough to fight it... I... I wanted to be able to protect the throne and the people too early... I... I wanted to train with your best, even though I can barely handle your worst... I'm sorry. Fuck I'm sorry, okay!? I... I can't even move now... Fuck my life, if it wasn't for my nerves probably being destroyed at this point, it might feel even worse... Some great Leonhardt I'm supposed to be, can't even fucking last a full minute... I'll stop... I'll... I'll stop trying to rush and take it slow... Okay?"

It took a lot for her to say that, and the pain within her voice was laced with a bit of emotional stress. She couldn't rush it, she couldn't be the best, she couldn't even last... She was a Leonhardt by blood, but not by actions yet. She wanted to rush it, she wanted to be one by actions and do great things, but she just -can't-. She can't just skip the line, she can't just expect her power to grow from doing impossible things... She can't just keep trying to be something she's not ready to be yet. She's Kayta right now.. And just Kayta... So she should live like one rather than Kayta Leonhardt, the time will come for the throne... She just had to remember that. It'll come to her... She won't come to it, she must take strides to it rather than skipping a lap or two because her mind was filled with only that. Abusive lessons given to her by her own 'father' that she -had- to become the one heir or else she was as good as dead and useless... That even the mother she never met would hate her.

Emotions began to well up within Kayta, eyelids slowly blinking as tear ducts began to slowly start expelling water. She was crying... Not balling, but crying. Tears flowing down her cheeks. She had realized a lot this day, she had finally been put in her place, and she had finally been taught that she couldn't just always get what she wanted... And she couldn't just use her origin as an excuse to throw a tantrum or play unfairly... Clear water fell down her cheeks, lacing with the blood covering her body at this point to form crimson drops that soon followed the streams of blood that was letting itself loose from her body. Without any help at this point, she would die... So early, and so soon. She didn't want to die... But she couldn't just save herself at this point, she couldn't even move.

She had to realize that this isn't just about her... That this isn't just about her leading the people she held high within her heart, but... It was about so much more, one of those things being that she needed to realize that she couldn't just do everything by herself, she couldn't just get powerful on her own... There were others with their own stories, their own reasons, and their own purposes that she had to realize if she ever wanted to be a real leader....

"...Why... Why did you train me...?"

At this point... She hadn't even realized that there was another cut across the one cheek that was undamaged, too fazed by everything that had just happened and the emotions that welled up inside of her too even care... This... This was actually the first time she's even cried since she was too little to even pronounce words properly. In order for one to mature and learn, they must first make a mistake to learn from, and Kayta finally opened up an opportunity to learn for once, to improve... And maybe... Just maybe... To actually change something rather than chasing a dream that she will...

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Sun Jan 31, 2016 2:39 pm

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Artist: Homestuck OST - Song: Upward Movement - Word Count: 1424

Why was Kayta born to be so fragile and frail? Perhaps it was the mixed blood, the weaker family known as Vizidae mixing in with what was supposed to be blood of almost legends. No matter the case, it was a curse she was now stuck with, and something she would have to power through in order to even reach the heights that s he's been always told to reach by people the care more about where she went than her. Every faint twitch, every time Kayta tried to move, more pain came to her, resulting in only further inducing tears to stream down damaged, cut cheeks to turn clear liquids into crimson waters. She was never pushed this hard before... And she did worry for her life, but Animum... She didn't seem as cruel as she did just moments ago.

No... She was being hugged? It... It scared the woman, it honestly made her scared, damaged muscles tensing up as her breathing got all the more rougher, all the more rugged to showcase this fear. She wasn't used to this at all, and the only times she had received an actual -hug- before was many, many years ago. Back when she was small... Back before she was immediately shoved to the ground and forced to survive a beating. She was used to being held, it was normal to be held by someone after pushing yourself to the limit... But now, this felt different, this was... Almost caring.

There was a reason to the hug, and Kayta could feel it... Energy slowly pouring into her body, slowly infusing itself with her damaged parts. She was being healed, that was the reason... Though it still just felt awkward, not normal. She was fearful since it was something she's never had to experience before nor deal with. When she could feel pressure upon her forehead from Animum's chin, it left her silent, no long speaking as she had said her piece. She didn't know how to react, she was left a bit stunned by the act of actual care for her well being, and the fact that she had become worried about Kayta's health. Without a plan of action in her head anymore, or any idea what to do... She simply rested.

Her body needed to heal anyways, and she needed to rest. She slowly started to relax, muscles no longer tensing as her tears began to stifle themselves just a bit. Her body was slowly fixed and healed, all of it... Slow, all of it giving Kayta more time to reflect on her actions and remind herself of the deeds she has done. It helped her realize that... That she was too weak in this world, and would always need help. It made her angry, but it also made her sad, bringing forth two negative emotions that swirled within her. She couldn't even do anything about it other than accept help and continue to train, her teacher had done a poor job of actually preparing her for anything at this point. Maybe... Maybe if mother was around, maybe she could have gotten stronger, maybe she could have taught her how to really make a difference.

But for now? Kayta was left in the grasp of a powerful being who nearly ripped her to sheds, body slowly being mended as all of the pain hit her constantly. It was painful... And what especially hurt was the mending of her bones, painstakingly horrific as her body winced every so often, Kayta doing her best not to move the damaged spot that was currently being healed. At least Animum had an amazing, versatile power. It led to a lot of interesting things that could happen due to it, such as healing, assisting, supporting, offense... Animum was powerful, she was someone who could do everything and still care enough to even dare hug someone she had only met just a small while ago... It was someone that Kayta wished she could be.

Not entirely like a model, but just... Someone great, someone who she could use as a guideline for her own path, since she didn't -want- to copy anyone else and try to say that was her. She wanted to be her, and she wanted to grow up strong.. Heh, that reminded her a little bit of her ambitions as a kid, and also reminded her that she hasn't really grown up that much. Sure, by human standards, she had grown... But by Sugiuran? She was still a small child that had much to learn, and so much more to do in the future. She had a path she needed to clear out for her to continue on... She needed to do a lot more. But first, she needed to deal with the pain because -FUCK- it hurt.

Soon enough, Animum began to speak herself. It was... It was inspiring, to say the least. It gave Kayta a very faint, pained smile upon her reddened lips. She did good, at least... And that was true, she was able to survive for that long. Though in the grand scheme of things... She could survive a full minute against another 0-2, but all that would do is buy time for others. She... She needed this training, she needed to take her time and slowly work her way up. She doesn't want to have to be the one that buys time, she wants to make it so that the threat is gone and done quickly. It wasn't that she yearned for power, well, she did... But it was more so to yearn for her nation bettering itself, and -that- definitely needed time. It needed to be kept safe while it grew, any attacks on it only further complicating things and making it all the more difficult. She couldn't have that. She just... She wanted it to all go okay.

Owowowoowowwowowowo fuck... Her nerves were being fixed now, already leading to Kayta starting to shift within Animum's grasp, wincing almost constantly from pain and groaning out now. Her voice sounded pained, very pained... Her nerves were being reconstructed and restored, but doing so would bring immense amounts of pain, and also let her feel the aches of her entire body and sore muscles from everything that had happened today. Everything was fixed... With help at least. Hell, to be fair, this was a luxury for her. When she was younger, she never had anyone heal her... Though then again, she didn't have almost everything in her body broken and shattered.

Finally, a small breather, a coffee-break... No, now wasn't the time for jokes, even if Kayta had only thought it. Animum... Seemed truly concerned, worried that she had killed the weak Sugiuran. It made her feel... Pretty sad, and doubtful of if she was that good of a student if she brought this much worry to the angelic being. She began to speak, slowly, but surely. "Hey... I mean... Thank you... I uhh... Just thank you. For everything. I don't want to see ya' getting all too sad, okay? I'll be fine, I'm built tough, right? We... We can start again once I can manage standing. I'm sorry for worrying ya'"

She was being honest... And soon enough, she already began to feel her energy stores filled to the brim once more... That just led to the question of how much energy had Animum stored within herself to just do it so easily? Tremendous amounts probably. No matter the case, Kayta slowly began to stand on her own once everything was fixed, trying to gently slip away from Animum's grasp to show that she was fine. All this worrying and care over her... It made her scared, scared enough to want to avoid being in a positive like that. Not that it wasn't nice to have someone care enough to hold her... But it was just something that incited a fearful reaction due to her past.

Soon enough, the Leonhardt stood once more, weapons already appearing out of thin-air to her sides once more as she straightened her posture. Back slowly standing upright, legs placed evenly apart... And smile upon her face. It wasn't one of cockiness such as earlier, no, it was one of... Joy? No, not joy... It was one of feeling, Kayta knew that much, but she hasn't really learned about herself enough yet to really tell why she was smiling this time, but if felt much gentler. "Don't worry about me that much, 'kay? You're doing great and I can't thank you enough... I'm ready whenever you are."

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As animum was healing her, the captain of squad seven couldn’t help but think silently to herself. Just what was it that pushed her to train this girl so rigorously. What was it that made her want to make this girl stronger? It was an enigma in her emotions, those emotions that she had felt so recently, and so she knew there was more so much more that she could teach this girl, some of it from her own experiences, experiences this girl needed, so that she could both become a stronger individual and so that she could mature. She didn’t know the reason that made her feel so compelled to do as her Host bodies mother had done with her the memories of the memory rosary, Claire Clixx. Those dark days that she herself had gone through her entire life, it was these things that had shaped Animum’s previous host and those things had been the basis that Animum herself had been able to draw on, which was why she felt just as it had made her stronger? Bearing the endless weight of despair every day, it would help Kayta, even with the training she had undergone , and her determination she had shown? Both of these led Animum to believe that she could take it, and she could understand it, these memories that she cherished and what they meant in general.

That was why? Now as the Vice-Captain of squad 7 walked forward she had gently pulled kayta into her arms again, pressing her forehead against the girl's own. Now? If she had been allowed she would have utilizing the electrical pulses in both their brains stimulated and recoded her own memories, not all of them because she didn’t know if she would be able to handle every one of them, however? Animum would have begun slowly at first, starting with her beginning, her hosts very beginning. So the first sensation that kayta would endure? It would be the burning, being trapped as an unborn fetus inside her mother's womb as a human. Unable to live, but with a prolonged burning, that took roughly three months, that would the the beginning of the memories. It wouldn’t be joy or hope, no it would be an endless torrential cascade of pain, one that would be omnipresent, without end the feeling of the flesh slowly searing from the bone. The tissues turning to ash bit by bit, those would be the first sensations of her memories, the ones she drew from her host. . Magnolia Clixx Daughter of Claire Clixx, the memory rosary of despair.

Yet at the same time as these memories flowed through animums mind to kayta’s? She would continue to monitor the girls state of mental well being, making sure that she wouldn’t break under the weight, as slowly? She went into the next of her memories, this one being the time first as a shinigami, how for the vast majority of her host's life? She had been in a room, her own spiritual energy being so great that it literally tore her body’s former resident, Magnolia Clixx’s very body apart with every passing moment. Many hundreds of years would pass by compounded in the span of minutes, these memories being of how everyone had been afraid of her, how animum’s former host had just wanted to die, just wanted to end it all because it was way too hard to bear it anymore. This would be the second greatest strain on Kayta probably, as animum didn’t only pass on these memories, she had compounded the pain, the sheer agony that stemmed from those memories. So this would be the second challenge of these memories, as to kayta? Through control of the electrical impulses [if kayta allows her too] of the body she had simulated all the pain that the person in these memories actually endured.

Then there was that sweet flavor of hope, when kisuke urahara had fixed the host so she could survive again, that would the the predominant emotion in the third batch of memories. Hope, which led into her finally serving, and then that day that she had broken once more, when she had been unable to go back to the gotei after the interference of ashlei clixx, who had turned her ultimately into a vizard if just by on accident, then there was the memories of wandering, unable to find a home, until she had finally found one as the warlord of the sea in the Rinyūaru. This would be when she had begun to find hope once again, had been able to think maybe things would be okay once more. However then came the australian war, the heated battle she had engaged in between her former host Magnolia Clixx and Rose Mischevang, the pain of that fight the mass destruction as nozomi had entered and the three powers had clashed, that would be the prevalant emotion. Pain but also the underlying tones of a broken mind, which to kayta would feel like shards stabbing into the very fibre of her being.

The fourth memory had then smashed into the forefront of kayta’s mind probably, as animum had keeping her composure sent over the state of ultimate mind destruction that animum had undergone when the Rinyūaru had been destroyed by k-world, but more then that this would lead into when she had been found by sunshine, and this was where the pain would get the most prevalant, as the merging and recreation of her body, and finally? Kayta would be the only other person to witness this moment, the moment in Animum’s past where animum had become animum, the memory would be accompanied with the feeling of the host being devoured, soul, body, the hollow and the zan all of them had become devoured yet still remained, and the despair would expand outwards encompassing everything, every single thing would be tinged with a depth of despair that was so strong that it was like a bottomless well, there was no end and there was no beginning. It was merely there, existing, Kayta would feel it as the hope and every other emotion day in and day out had been leeched from animum’s body, leaving just the being who’s namesake animum had just recently barrier. Animum, The Advent Of Despair.

The memories of her fighting starrk in hueco mundo, that cold feeling that had been in her chest, one that didn’t end, and didn’t begin, it was just there, would be the next prevalant emotion that would flood kayta throughout this memory, and yet, this whole memory would be in complete monotone, as there was no beginning to the emotions, nor was there any kind of emotion other then a base of despair that overwhelmed everything else, that was the emotions of her time as the advent of despair, but more important then that? As time passed it would catch up to where animum’s memories finally began to regain her warmth, regain who she was and what she wanted to be.

This would be the final memory, the memory of that fateful day she met carter and her world was forever changed. Carter was so much weaker then her, but carter had given her something that no one else had been able to give her. That would have been hope, carter had given animum hope and with that emotion? There would be a soft warmth that brought those monotone memories into a full range of color, the aurora’s the feelings of elation and bliss she had never felt before in her entire life, those memories would slam into kayta as animum had let her memories keep flowing, and yet she would have then given her a glimpse of something else, that would be the many memories that had been shared with her from claire clixx the former rosary of despair. These memories would be like an infinitely crushing weight, madness and hatred, and sadness and fear, would be infinite in these before she had said slowly though it would be a simple word through the manipulation of electrical pulses in the brain to turn these encoded pulses into language.

”.Learn from my mistakes.. as this is who i am.. If you can comprehend it.. you can grow from it.. this is my life, which you have now bore witness too. “

Sun Jan 31, 2016 11:43 pm

Artist: Homestuck OST - Song: Cobalt Thief - Word Count: 1240

...Huh? Was... Was Kayta being held once more? A familiar feelings that she had just experienced moments before washed over her, only now? It had a true reason... What if this was the training? Animum going to heavily harm her in an embrace, maybe slamming her knee into her gut and doing some other painful part... Or maybe the training was to not let someone get too close and pretend that they care? Thought began to swirl about within her head, lasting for quite a few moments before something gently pressed against her forehead... It was Animum's own. It definitely caught Kayta off guard, enough that she simply awkwardly stood in place... Eyes widening as her lips parted just enough to emit a gasp. She didn't know what to do... ANd with her lack of action, Animum had full reign to do as she pleased.

The purpose of the gentle embrace would soon make itself clear, coming to fruition just within moments as Kayta's body began to tense rather quickly. These weren't her memories, no, they were someone else's... Animums... What... What was this? Pain, horrible, excruitiating pain... Why did everything burn? Why was everything so contained, so tight, so claustrophobic...? Everything hurt, everything was burning for so long.. Everything... Everything hated the existence of this being, fires attempting to burn it to cinders with it's own flesh turning to ash. Kayta already began to groan in pain, hands reaching over to Animum and grasping at her arms and squeezing tightly... To a being as strong as her, the grasp felt weak... But to Kayta? She was holding on as hard as she could to deal with the pain. Why.. Why show her something so sad and painful?

Why was there so much pain? Every memory placed within her mind was filled with pain and sorry. Next came something that... Something that really made her feel sorry for this being. For this person, for this poor soul who had to live in so much agony all the time. The feelings of one's own body being forced to suffer with such pressure seemed impossible. It was something that Kayta hadn't thought would be a thing... Someone just having too much, enough that it was going to harm them and tear them apart from the inside out. And... This person wanted to die, they just wanted to end it all where they sat. It... Kayta's never had to feel that way, and never knew that someone could feel that way. It... Well, it started to change her and open her mind up to newer possibilities... And new emotions she never knew she had.

The emotional and mental stress that began to overtake Kayta was noticeable... But she seemed to be doing a good job of keeping it in check on her own. It would become a bit more obvious as to why she was so resourceful and thought of fairly new things... Her mind had been altered long ago by Sugiuran magic, made to be just a bit more receptive to knowledge and allowing her to react to things with less issue. No matter the case... She seemed fine for now, at least until the new thoughts burst past her mind. There was... Joy for a bit, relief, only to be soon replaced by more sorrow and pain, the memories flooding in harshly enough to begin tearing away at the edges of her sanity, her mind having trouble realizing what was her memories and not, what was real and fake through how vivid every bit of this was.

She... Kayta would recover, however. It was just taxing at the moment, and only the source of pain that continued to rattle throughout her very being, her very core. It was too much, it was starting to get to her... And the next memory made her already begin to shift in place further and further, fingers grazing along Animum's arms as their grasp grew tighter, trying to cope with the mental stress put upon her. Why... Just how difficult and taxing can one's life be? She thought her own was fairly rough... She had no real family, no friends, and no freedom asides from doing missions... But this? Sure, there was someone kind that came in, but look at just how much had went wrong! How much had brought pain, suffering.. And the consumption of a host's body. Kayta never knew that life could vary this much, or bring this many things into existence.

The last of what Animum had to give Kayta had left her reeling just a bit... From dull to vibrant, from dark, to light. From a sorrowful, pitiful time in which everything lacked emotions, to one where life had meaning, had purpose, had a reason to go through. Animum had gone through so much, and must have been so undoubtedly lonely in such as place as Heuco Mundo... But in the end, she had at least found someone else. In the end, she eventually found Carter. It was refreshing, to say the least... That there was some good to this story, not another sorrowful expanse that would pull at the strings of Kayta's mind.

Though it may have ended on a better note, Kayta began to panic. Her mental processing getting a bit askewed as she felt stressed, she felt pressured, she felt as if this was all too much and her mind was going to explode with how much was just forced into her. She began to shift in place at a much more violent rate, shoulders shifting up and down, entire body moving and tensing as her head was the first part of her body to move more than a few inches. It was thrust forwards, her forehead attempting to push away at Animum's own but instead slipping, leading to lips grazing along the much stronger being's own. It was... Something that Kayta had never felt before in her life of seclusion, the soft flesh of another person's lips, meeting her own in something so quick but still tempting enough.

The rest of her body had pulled away once heads were pushed away, Kayta's eyes widening further as she actually began to blush for the first time in her life. What were once pale cheeks turned pink within a few moments, cheeks feeling as if they were burning up as embarrassment. Fingers slowly trailed from her sides over to her lips, pressing against them and covering them as eyes stared towards Animum's own for a few moments before looking away. The longer she remained silent, the redder her cheeks became, her face almost entirely turning beet red as her breathing grew heavy. What had just happened? There was so much stress, so much pain, and now... What?

"T-The hell w-was that! W-Why'd you m-move forwards!?" Though Kayta feigned anger, fingers slipping away to reveal once touched lips moving again to shout those words, it was ore so for her to pin the blame on Animum... The woman most likely knew that Kayta didn't really believe that it was Animum's fault for that, but it was obvious enough that she became severely flustered, to the point where she couldn't keep a single ounce of her composure. Everything that had just happened, all the memories, all the training, and now this? Kayta couldn't even look at Animum at the moment, eyes staring down to the ground as her breathing remained just as heavy, chest slowly rising and falling...

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