I can see my house from up here (Renji)

"Normally I see Kidō simply fizzle out or just not take form, but seeing it backfire like that was new."

At first Andrew had a happy smile on his face, but then the smile changed into a look of confusion when he talked about Gin. He didn't have much interaction with him, and even with Aizen he had very few interactions even when he had been in the fifth division for both when he started off and when he came back stronger. But then he thought about Renji's question when he simply smiled while sighing. "Well, that's something no one usually asks me." He began to mutter to himself, drawing in the air with his index finger as if he had been trying to work out the calculation in his head before coming to a conclusion. "I would say that I became one a little over three centuries ago."

Andrew sat down on the ground, making drawings in the salt and pepper much like how a child would do as he spoke. "You probably had seen the reports about an unseated fifth division shinigami that went insane against an arrancar; that would happen to be me. I found out in time that the reason I have this is because of another shinigami named Shohito Katsuragi." He then looked at Renji as he shrugged. "Don't bother looking for him though, he died in World War II. Apparently he found a way to preserve his power and when I reincarnated from him I got his powers but none of his memories." As he spoke, he had been drawing a picture of a walrus skull. "It didn't come out fully when I had been brought in for questioning. I wasn't accused of a crime, but I was a witness to another shinigami that was accused for killing another noble family. I do not want to think of her like that, but I know that she had lost a lot. Anyway, that was when the hollow came out along with the lava in tow. I got lucky with a quick knife explosion followed with bashing the hollow's head in with a spoon so that I could keep my identity."

He had been drawing little lines in the mask with the pepper as he continued to speak. "After that I went into hiding for a couple centuries. It wasn't until I had been approached by another vizard when I found out about the vizard corp. That's when I decided to join them and do what I can to help because even though I have a hollow, I care more about helping as many as I can." He had stopped talking as he finished the drawing of his walrus skull hollow mask. He only used his mask when he needed it, but mainly he didn't want to have other shinigami think he was just another mask.

Renji nodded "Yea, Most Kidō that cant be cast will simply fizzle out, But my Kidō has a tenancy to backfire because of my lack of skill in it..." He shrugged some "But either way..." He listened as he answered his second question and continued on for an explaination "I see...Yea I remember that report, Didn't think that Shinigami had survived the encounter..." He looked around and sighed and watched as he continued and began drawing the mask.

He frowned some as he watched, He didn't really care for hollows of any kind, And a Vizard was no different to him....But Andrew seemed like he was really in control, But then he remembered Ichigo...Everyone loses control eventually....And most don't come back "Just remember, I won't hesitate to kill you if your hollow takes control" He told him as he looked up towards where the hollows had come from before "I'm surprised you we're able to stay hidden for so long...I would think that Soul Society would've found you in just a few weeks..."

Aside from that Renji sat down and sighed "Let me ask you something...If you had the chance to go back and not fight that Arrancarr....Would you?"

"To be honest I decided to go hermit for many decades. Made myself a shelter, taught myself to hunt, forage and work on some farming now and then. I only went into the city when I needed to get supplies I knew I wouldn't be able to get normally like cooking utensils and medicine."

Andrew's mind first went to his makeshift shelter that was far from the signs of civilization. It was that desire to live, to keep the hollow at bay that maintained his sanity as he worked on not only living his life but also to practice so that he would become stronger so that his hollow would never take over his body again. "I know you are concerned with me losing control; however, know that I am taking steps with keeping my hollow not only at bay but I am going to do what I need to so that the hollow never rears its head again." There was a clear sense of memory going on in his eyes as he spoke. He remembered the day all too well when he felt his inner hollow trying to take over. He remembered seeing the shards of what seemed to be almost like granite that surrounded his body, the scent of burning brimstone from the lava he exhaled, and above all else he remembered the walrus mask that had now been laid at his feet. It was that day he had won the mask and the second fight to keep his identity. He knew in time when he needed to take that final step to push the hollow so deep into the darkest corners of his mind that it would think twice to even try to rear its head.

But when it came to the question of Ashrael, he nodded his head without thinking twice. "Yes, I would go after him. He was the one responsible that hurt the very person who helped me get through the shino academy." He then started to draw another crude drawing, but instead of a mask he started to make a doodle of a girl's face and head. "I was all over the map when I started in the academy. But she helped me achieve focus and thanks to her I was able to become a shinigami in the first place. She was there and he took her hostage. But she was an unseated like me, and she wasn't able to hold back against him. My hollow came out when my rage was at its height as I saw her get hurt." As he continued to draw he then went forward in his past. "Even today she is the reason why I do the things I try to do to the best of my ability. I would never let what happened to me before happen again. It's funny really, I felt like she watched out for me. When I had been fighting my zanpaktou to achieve bankai, I felt her hug me as was about to grind him in the earth. I know it was my spirit telling me to relinquish my anger," And that was when his smile appeared once again. He finished up with the drawing of Yumi while taking a breath while looking up at Renji. "Even now after so much time has passed, she and my spirit were still teaching me things."

"To be honest" Renji started as he stood and began moving towards the edge of the floating city "I don't care that your a Vizard...One of my best friends had become one by force" He said as he sighed, Stopping at the edge and closing his eyes "Ichigo Kurosaki" He said as he looked down towards Karakura town "I swear when we first met....We we're bitter enemies....But he showed me something, and he showed my Captain something..." He turned some towards Andrew "When he first fought my captain, Captain Kuchiki...His Hollow had taken over...and had he let his hollow continue, He'd of killed him, Ichigo would've easily won that battle hands down...Even my Captain admits that...." He sighed again "But he didn't let him...Ichigo forced that beast away, Ichigo didn't want to win with any help from a hollow, Or any help at all...In fact he wasn't even fighting my Captain" He chuckled some and sighed, Rubbing the back of his head "To be honest he was fighting the law of Soul Society." He sighed and shook his head as he turned around completely

"Ichigo was one of the few that helped to change the way Soul Society worked, And the way we treated everything. When Aizen defected and joined the hollows Ichigo was the first one to want to go after him. And it was thanks to Ichigo that we managed to beat him." He moved back over towards Andrew and sat back down "But, Ichigo had lost his Shinigami powers to do it" He sighed and laid down, staring upwards "Throughout the time that Ichigo was fighting for Soul Society against Aizen...He lost control so many times...There was one time, Against a Vasto Lorde named Ulquiorra, Ichigo lost complete control...Orihime, One of his best friends...She described everything that had happened when he lost control...How Ichigo didn't even recognize his own friends as allies when he was fighting...He even attacked Isshida when he tried stopping him after he had gone too far, And if it hadn't been for Ulquiorra, Isshida would've been outright killed...." With a soft sigh he'd return back to Andrew "So you see, It isn't that I'm afraid of you losing control...It's that I'm afraid of having to deal with something like what Ichigo became...Ichigo had become something far stronger then a mere Vasto Lorde when his hollow took over to protect Orihime...."

Whew, one less shinigami I don't need to look over my shoulder for.

Though Andrew was relieved, he didn't seem to show it. But instead of a look of fear, it was an expression of understanding and curiosity. Andrew listened to the story of Ichigo Kurosaki intently. He had never seen him before, perhaps it might have been around that period of time he had been in the Rukongai to transitioning himself to the Shino Academy. But none the less he nodded his head as his dark brown eyes registered everything he had said. Thinking about his fight with Renji's captain made him think still with the fight with Ashrael. But much of the fight was spotty to him despite remembering the mixing of their blood from whatever the fight had entailed. But as he got to the part with the battle with Ulauiorra, he began to wonder if that was the ressurecion that Colin had talked about.

As he continued to process the data, his tone was one that he usually possessed when he had been in deep thought for long periods of time. "I can understand your concern, especially since I remember the end result of my fight with my inner hollow. It felt like I had been fighting for a long time with him. But even as anger didn't fuel my blade to fight him, I know all too well about what I can do if left to my own devices in full rage." He then turned to look at his zanpaktou. In a way he kind of understood why he needed to do what he did for Orihime. On the other hand, he also understood that the inner hollow is not a one size fits all scenario. "I remember the time when I was able to stop my hollow.from taking over. I caused a lot of damage in the process and that's why I needed to run. I was afraid of the fire I had created, but not anymore. In order to maintain control, at least for me, I think I need to understand how my fire works. That way what happened before cannot happen again."

"I see" He said with a sigh as he stood, brushing himself off "Well...My time allotted here in the World of the Living is about to run out, So I need to be getting back to Soul Society and report on the situation..." He raised his Zanpakutō and formed the Senkaimon "Take care of yourself Andrew...And don't ever let it take over" He said as he stepped into it and the doors closed behind him

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