Hoping for the future... but in case of the end...

Tue Nov 29, 2011 8:00 pm

Well guys.. I'm afraid this might be it..

Things have.. really heated up around here recently. Honestly, I couldn't even begin to describe how much things've been sucking as of late.. We're in debt, everyone hates each other, we're fighting tooth and nail.. the family's falling apart more and more as days go by... And my dad? Heh... well he needs a punching bag, and of course the eldest boy is chosen.

Well.. as the situations grow worse... So do the beatings. In all honesty, I don't know how much longer this is going to go on before he actually kills me. It feels like it'll be soon... And.. -sigh-

To anyone who wants to tell me to get out, tell me to go to court, etc. Please don't. I've considered every option, and at this point, the best one IMO is to just wade it out until I can move out in the summer... If anyone is genuinely willing and able to show up at my doorstep and take me away, I'm not going to complain, but I don't want any false hope.. it's been too long.

So.. I'm making this thread for two reasons.. to hope for a future.. and ensure my place will be filled if there is to be none.

First off, I am going to individually thank everyone who has changed my life for the time I've been on here. If your name gets left out, it's because I didn't really know you as well as I'd like to, but hopefully there's time to change that.

The Frost
Thank you... just.. thank you man. Your determination to pull yourself out of depression, spirit to just go out and get shit done, and ability to try and outrun, literally, all the shit that keeps you down, is an inspiration, and has been since the moment I joined. You and your lulz have helped me through a lot, and your Head Admin amazingness has helped me improve as a roleplayer and a person.

Chaozi
What can I say? No greater amount of lulz is there to be had than when we're discussing MTG. Besides that, you've introduced me to some great bands, given some good RP advice, and opened my view of Sadism to a whole new definition xD

Tsubine
Oh my god. Tsu. I NEVER in a MILLION years would've imagined you on my bro-list around the time I first joined. I saw you, to be honest, as a bit cold, and direct, and yeah, I was being judgemental, but I was naive, so sue me XD.

But in the time I've gotten to know you, helped out between PH and BBS, and given you a few pieces of advice. (Read: Hooked you up) Along with your MASSIVE help during my states of depression, areas of app-frustration, and inferiority complex override.. I can say, for sure, that you're one of the best friends I could've asked for here. ^^;;

Kyle
Dude.. you're a massive help to the site. No matter how much crap or lack of recognition you get from the Peons, you will always and forever be a bro. You threw me WAY off guard with how deep your voice was, but I won't hold it against you, aussie. To be fair, when you first joined, I was a bit skeptical of you since you liked Fairy Tail, an anime which I have been told is crap, but to each his own. -chuckles- You've been a great help to my self-confidence, and a fun bro to talk to all around.

Kenji
Yeah, I'm still calling you Kenji. Get over it. =P

Watching you mature as an RPer and a person ever since that QQ/Loserfest way back when has been a rollercoaster of win and fail. You've had ups, you've had downs, but in the end you've become a REALLY good friend. You've helped me through some tough shit. And I thank you for that. Here's hoping you can help others as well as you've helped me.

UHCM
Yade, yade... What a character you are, U. Your very existance confused the hell out of me for my first 3 or 5 months here, but as I came to understand you a bit, I came to enjoy your company as a roleplayer and a person.

A heart of gold, a great RPing foundation, some mean strategy skills, and the height of Xat lulz. I'm glad I've been able to talk to you during some tough times, even if I wasn't able to help you much.

Here's to you, man.

Agito
Oh my freaking god, dude. You HATED me when I joined. Yeah, I tried to pair with one of mariah's characters. So what? No need to get possessive and assholeish. D< TOTALLY Jk man XD

Between then and now, you've become one of the closest friends I've ever had. You're my go-to guy for amazing plots/stories, and my encyclopedia on all things Nasu-verse, along with Tsu.

I'm glad you two are together, by the way, you really are great with each other. ^^

You're the definition of a brother in everything but blood. You've helped me through SO much, been a great help with characters and roleplay, and have always been able to cheer me up when I'm down. Sure you take eons to post, but hey ;D

Dai
I... don't even know where to begin with you, man. You have been there through every single crisis and depression period I've had. Even though, at the beginning, I sorta took advantage of your newfag status on the site by roflstomping you with Ulquiorra (sorry for that, by the way), I quickly grew to find you awesome, and I'm glad I took the time to get to know you, since I couldn't even begin to ask for a better friend or VA partner. (And if anyone previously or afore mentioned feels offended by this statement, shush, it's a generalization, I love all of you xD).

Thank you for existing Dai. I mean it. Neutrality as a weakness be damned, you're an A-Plus badass.

Genpaku
Ah.. the bear.

I was, quite frankly, EXTREMELY intimidated by you when you joined. Like Raen, I sensed a wiser, older presence that commanded respect.. and honey. (Ya know, for the bears.)

But as time went on, I found my self slightly enthralled with your roleplay. You got shit done, and in a timely manner. You never took shit from anyone, and never gave less than 100%. Hell, my fight against you with Ulq remains to this day one of my favorite fight threads.

Keep on rollin'! Er... walking.. um.. er... lumbering? Hell I dunno.

Raiki
KAMEN RIDER RAIKI

But in all seriousness, you've been a great bro man. You're ALWAYS fun to talk to, you introduced me to Kamen Rider, which is amazing in all forms of the word, and you're an amazing roleplayer who will only get even better with time.

You are a true inspiration. You've had so much trouble with family and such, and yet you never let any of it overwhelm you. You never give up. You tank it and keep on with whatever needs to get done. There are no words for how awe-inspiring that is to me.

Although, I'm STILL PISSED WE MISSED EACH OTHER BY ABOUT 50 FEET XD

Cheers, mate.

As for Blank, YOU, miss, are going places.

You have true potential, realized through frost's training and some DAMN fine staff work. I suspect that you're going to be a true powerhouse as your power-level keeps evolving and growing. You'll get to a point where no one will even be able to understand the true level of your power. ;D

Don't let anyone give you shit, you don't deserve it.

= = =

To anyone not here, you either quit the site, are inactive, or I haven't gotten to know you well enough to really mention you here.. HOWEVER, do not feel excluded, as, in a small way, every single member here has changed me and my life. And I thank you all.

Now.. for the really really hard part...
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This... is the last RP will and testament of Pockeh. A.K.A: Mason R. Jock.

In the event that my father's beatings lead to my death, and I disappear for more than a month and a half without any warning, this is to be followed to the letter.

A.) All yen in my account is to be divided, evenly (round if necessary), between all App-Checkers, NPC controllers, and Judgement callers for doing a damn fine job that's rarely recognized. Any leftover yen is to go to Frost.

B.) My characters are to be distributed as follows:

1.) Haseo Karkata is to be left to Silim, if he is still even semi-active. If not, he shall be left to Kenji.

2.) Kameko Madoka-Sugiura is to be left in the care of Dai.

3.) Ulquiorra Cifer is to be killed off, and not available for use afterward, in memory of me, if possible. If this is too much to ask, throw him in adoption ^^;

4.) Shunsui Kyoraku is to be tossed in adoption as well.

5.) Vineria De Louge Roi is to be placed in adoption, and Sayuri De Louge Roi is to be given to whoever is decided to be best.

6.) Mayuri Kurotsuchi is to be given to Kenji

7.) Tsunade Okimaya is to be archived, or put in adoption, however is seen best fit.

8.) Mari Makinami is to be given to Genpaku.

C.) The only other thing I ask... is to be remembered. The work I've done, the statements I've made... I ask only not to be tossed to the wind.

And so ends the last will and testament of Pockeh.

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I love each and every last one of you. From bros, to friends, to my girlfriend, who, while not really active here, is still the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I wish you all the best. And a bright future.

Regards, love, and respect,

-Mason Ryan Jock

Tue Nov 29, 2011 9:09 pm

... Best wishes and good luck, man. I will Never, EVER will forget who made the Wizard of Rock who he is. Or Kameko's death march :p. In any case. You rock, dude.

Wed Nov 30, 2011 5:02 am

IF ANYONE ARCHIVES THIS THREAD, I WILL PERSONALLY FEED YOUR SPLEEN TO MY PET KANGAROO'S. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

I... Honestly didn't expect this to come at all dude. I had no idea things were that bad at your home. I appreciate everything you've done for me, not only me though, but for the site. For everyone. You've given us good laughs, jokes which you tell really easily, your such a cool guy. I don't have much to say for this... All I can say is... Don't act like this is the last time we will talk! Whether you like it or not, we will keep in touch. Hahaha, I hope the best for your future, I wish I had more to say but I got most of it off my chest already.

Wed Nov 30, 2011 5:46 am

:"( Bye Pockeh best of luck...

Thu Dec 01, 2011 4:38 am

Come again? Didn't realise any of that was happening in the background. Go away watery eyes! -rubs face-.

I can only wish you for a calm future until you get out of that. I could only read half of this thread before having to scroll all the way down.

Theres a lot of hugs coming your way from me If you want them though...

-hugs!-

Sat Jun 29, 2013 2:29 pm

«MOVING THIS TO ARCHIVES»

Seeing how this leave is fairly outdated, and it's taking up space in active departures, I'm going to go ahead and place this thread into archives.

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