THE Letter

Happy One Week (:

Okie, so, I know this is a little late, but only by a couple days. *cough* I'm really hoping you find this, pfft, "letter" cute and not uber creepy. This is my first time writing something like this, I guess I somehow link this with being a girlfriend, but remember I'm new to the actual dating thing.

So, I was thinking about how unpredictable I've been lately. Truth is I have no clue where it came from, but I do know that you're the reason. Around you I don't think, I just do. When I'm around you I feel like I can be me, but better and that I also don't have to try so hard. You make me feel so comfoted and happy, even if it means you aren't talking to me, just being in hte room with you is enough most the time.

When you're in a bad mood, it makes me sad because I have no idea what to do to make you happy. I think you're like me; you put on a good face at school, but you really just wan to be alone. I once always was so bitter and angry... towards myself. I wasn't pleased with how I looked; I've burned my body because I thought I was fat and ugly. In 8th grade I failed at losing weight... I weighed 163 pounds. I was depressed at the beginning of 9th, but somehow I now weigh 147 (which is less than I've been since the end of 5th grade). You already know I had acne, but did you know that it was so bad that kids used to say they wanted to Super Soak my face with all the Proactiv in the world? Yeah, little do they know that my emotions are really fragile when it comes to people being hurtful towards me.

I'm a total push over, but you can only push osmething so far before it breaks. I also have problems with me being violent which I'm trying to fix, but old habits die hard. I'm so sorry if I ever get clingy, jealous, or overbaring; everytime something good ever happens to me it usually gets taken away in the most painful way as possible.

I like writing poems. I actually wrote one for you, BUt I probably won't share it with you because my writings are private. The only poem I have for the public is "Thief" on my Facebook. I like the little things you say towards me. At your spartment, I always feel at home than I do in my house.

About the back of the first page, I bet you were like "Why is she sharing this?!" because caring is sharing. (: I want you to know the real me with no secrets about my past "Secrets, secrets, are no fun. Secrets, secrets, hurt someone" and since I got you to go out with me and you haven't broken up with me yet then either you deal with TMI. Well, ignore it, or could careless about my awkwardness. Boys may never understand girls and girls will always think boys are clueless.

10 Facts about me:

1. I hate pet names especially babe, baby, sexy.
2. I enjoy like the little things in life like random kisses.
3. I'm not patient, but I'm forgiving.
4. I htae cheaters and liars.
5. I get in the habit of kissing "boboes" by babysitting.
6. I was surprised you picked me up not once, but three times.
7. I love being difficult and teasing playfully.
8. My teeth are horrible.
9. My kissing skills are bad, the last time I kissed someone else was February.
10. I really like you, because you are who you are not because of your race.

So, anywhos, I never want you to tell me anything that you think I want to hear, because I'd much rather hear what you're thinking, I also don't want you to feel forced to say anything you don't want. Imma close up this letter because it's 1:32 am 9/12/11.