Re: Hey! Lookit Me! [Vee/Ehefra]

Tue Feb 15, 2022 1:47 pm

Hey! Lookit Me! [Vee/Ehefra] - Page 2 SqnQSvN

VIVYAN "VEE" FAYE

Vee listened to and followed the woman's orders distinctly, though the process was unsteady at first. Her ability in maintaining that cycle was feeble at points, but rather than dwelling on any mistakes, she continued manifesting them, notching them, dissolving them, mistakes and awkwardness plenty obvious, but beginning to slip away as the exercise went on, more confidence given to the cold arrows, until plenty of time was lost to it.

A little over an hour of it, her body gently shivering, a light mist of visible breath as she seemed far more focused on the action, even if she felt rather cold. It didn't hurt like before, but the chill had taxed at her concentration. Either way, she didn't stop, she wasn't going to stop until Ehefra gave the call, it wasn't going to be good enough until otherwise said.

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Thu Feb 24, 2022 11:01 am

Hey! Lookit Me! [Vee/Ehefra] - Page 2 HEADER2_2b9390b14beb37daf143ddc9cf4812e4

Ehefra watched and continued to instruct the woman as she worked through the exercise itself, making note of her progress and how much she was actually able to start shaping the arrows. She wasn't sure if it was sufficient, admittedly. But it was something. And Vee WAS making progress. Seeing her out of breath and exhausted like this also brought into question the girl's reishi manipulation ability. It certainly seemed like she was using a lot of her mental energy to accomplish something like this.

"That's enough." She noted firmly and patted Vee firmly on the back, grinning from ear to ear as she seemed to express happiness at Vee's work! A sharp contrast to that stern expression she'd had on while the girl had worked through it. Vee was worn out, tired. Which was good. It was important for what was to come if Vee was a little broken down. Out of her .....normal guardedness. Pushing the girl THIS far had a purpose after all.

"What is it you want from being here, Vee? You've spoke about your family. Wanting to spite them. And you talked about wanting to be a quincy. But now....you ARE a quincy. And I honestly don't think just spiting your father is sufficient reason for you to be pushing yourself this far. So I'm curious: What do YOU want out of being here, Vivyan?" She asked calmly enough. Not demanding. Not Ordering her to answer. This was simply her own calm curiosity coming into play.

Fri Feb 25, 2022 3:20 pm

Hey! Lookit Me! [Vee/Ehefra] - Page 2 Do00MXC

VIVYAN "VEE" FAYE

Vee felt a bit of a stumble when Ehefra gave her a pat on the back, acknowledging the command to cease as she stopped manipulating the Reishi around her. She smiled tiredly at Ehefra, even if she didn't exactly state how well of a job she did - Her reaction was more than enough of an indicator of satisfaction to her.

Though, when it came down to Ehefra questioning what she wanted from being in the Vandenreich, that smile slowly slipped into a look of confusion, which turned into hesitant irritation to the mentioning of her family with her eyes darting to and fro, to finally sinking into a look of sadness. The woman wasn't demanding anything of her, no, but in her younger mind she had plenty of emotion churning around, unspoken and kept out of the way for the most part, but in this moment...

"...I.. I don't know," She'd start with a soft stutter, "I kinda just ran off on my own and came here cause I wanted to be a Quincy, just like my siblings, but I don't.. Feel accomplished, I guess?"

She'd slowly sink to a sit, her lip set into a gentle frown, "..Even training now, it's like I was still being told I couldn't do it, just in the back of my mind, 'Just stop'. 'Just quit'. 'You're never going to be worth it'... It's so stupid, i'm far away from them but I still feel like garbage."

Her legs would soon be embraced by her arms as her eyes grew round, staring forward, "...I felt really weird things during the mission, too... Like... Angry? But it didn't feel like me, but it was? I don't know, maybe the concussion made me think weird... It just feels like everything's against me."

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Thu Mar 03, 2022 6:23 pm

Oh.....that.. That was.... a lot more than she was expecting. A bit of a surprised look crossed her face as this girl suddenly started to melt into depression right infront of her. Oh fuck what did you do?! She furrowed her brows, doing her best to listen to the girl as they spoke about their accomplishments. She ....went quiet for a while. Furrowing her brows slightly and ....thinking about what was going on here. It definitely didn't sound like the girl became a Quincy for the right reasons. She sighed lightly and rubbed her eyelids, taking a moment to make her way over to Vee and sitting down beside her. She reached up, peeling her hat off and setting it to the side before taking a moment to collect what she wanted to say in her mind.

"Vee. I've seen a lot of quincies. And not just when I joined the Vandenreich. Seen a lot of them develop their abilities. A lot of em grow into pretty awesome fighters. And I've also seen a lot of them die. Quincy that trained for years. Becoming so great, so talented. And then as soon as they went out, they vanished beneath a mob of hollows. Screaming......sobbing out my name as I tried to cut my way to them." She stared off into space and ....felt a chill. Wow, fuck, too dark Ehefra, reel that shit back in, bury it in your heart where it belongs! She ...brightened up a bit and cleared her throat. Yep, nope, do not cry infront of this girl. Deep breath. Hhhhhh. Whew......

She refocused. "I've seen a lot of that stuff. So I know a lot about quincy. Which is why I want you to trust me when I say .....that's a little retarded." She noted lightly, reaching up and resting her hand on the girl's shoulder. "Of course you haven't progressed much. You joined the Vandenreich....what.... a couple months ago? With barebones kinda non-great quincy powers? You're doing REALLY well for like.... MOST quincy. A lot of my students would pass out in the middle of the training I just gave you when they had only been training for a few months. And yea....sure. Compared to some of the freaks you see out there, you're definitely gonna feel like a defenseless little loser rat stumbling out of a rabbithole and faced with a wolf. But all that shit's like...normal. And sure, you probably don't wanna be normal. I get that. I sure wish I was like Administrator Armstrong. Hot, Powerful, Influential, Hot, but I'm not. But I can still do my best. Right?" She put on a sheepish smile. Was that like....helpful? Inspirational? Insulting? She wasn't actually sure. She hadn't actually tried to help someone with this ...particular flavor of depression before.

Thu Mar 03, 2022 7:58 pm

VIVYAN "VEE" FAYE

Vivyan hugged her legs tightly as those feelings welled within her, until Ehefra pulled her attention from her thoughts with a rather dark statement, one that roused a memory in the girl. She remembered when all of her older siblings went off with her father to serve the Quincy who had emerged, only to come back with several of them missing or dead. She remembered that dreadful look on her eldest sister's face, someone who used to secretly cheer for her and her abilities to develop, reduced to a one-eyed, shameful, nervous wreck who wanted nothing to do with the Quincy at all.

It was dangerous, they said.
It was no place for a darling thing like her, they said.
She was better off being married to some guy she didn't love to continue the bloodline, trapped in the life of a housewife for as long as she lived.

It made her sick, all this fixation on ability and talent, even though it didn't really matter in the end. They died anyway, those siblings they called 'capable'. They never believed in her, they were content putting her down a lane they knew she hated, but it wasn't like her feelings mattered. They never mattered in that house. She never mattered in that house.

Why did it have to be her? Why was she sidelined so quickly and easily?

She had been looking at Ehefra, though her expression seemed far off in a way. Even so, she smiled at the woman, "Yes ma'am.."

Her lips wrinkled, the bitterness in her soul giving way to tears, unable to hold back the hideous feeling she had in her heart, even with a smile on her face, "I'll... Just... Keep doing my best, ma'am... Regardless... Of what I feel..."

She trembled slightly, "..Thanks... For being supportive... I-I appreciate it so much... Hahh..."

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Wed Mar 09, 2022 8:14 pm

It was ....pathetic to really see the girl like this. Pathetic in the way she hated: the way that made her ache. She knew what this girl was going through. Her own family having insisted that she ...well, not really go get married, but more or less live a normal life. She made her way over to V and gently let her hand rest on the woman's shoulder, a sigh escaping her for a moment as she put on a serious expression, searching the girl's face as she tried to navigate the situation.

"No. Not regardless of what you feel. BECAUSE of what you feel. You don't have to ignore your emotions to be able to function. Because let's face it, the feelings aren't going to go away. I mean...well.. like...with a lot of therapy, maybe. But uh, not really my forte. What you CAN do is try to forge those feelings into something that can fuel you. Because if you just gave up, those feelings would only get worse, ya know?" She smiled, sighing just a little. Reaching out, she gently drew the girl into a hug. Thankfully, she wasn't he girl's superior or some shit. Patting the girl on the back as they thanked her. Thinking about it. Hm...helpful. She certainly didn't feel helpful. This was ....what...the second time they had had a conversation on this subject? And she didn't honestly feel like she'd made any progress. She'd definitely have to see if there was a Pscyhologist on staff she could refer her to. Maybe one in the City? This was clearly something she needed help on, and Ehefra definitely wasn't equipped to deal with it.

Ehefra would wait until the girl was all cried out before she would speak up. "Alright. U[ on your feet girly, let's dry those eyes. I think that's plenty of training for now. Let's get you something to eat and drink. You'll feel much better with something in your stomach." She assured her.