ENTER THE DEPTHS
Artist: N/A - Song: N/A - Word Count: N/A
Over and over again. The whispers repeated. The madness racking the edges of insanity. As to not humor the fear of what her eyes might see, Ceal shut the lids of her eyes. One could only imagine the apparitions that felt so close to her, whispering in her ear, breathing upon the nape of her neck, touching her body. The spirits of her delusions seemed fit to torment her in ways only the more depraved entities of the dark delved in. Clenching herself harder, finding herself clinching her jaw shut, teeth grinding upon teeth.
The darkness; What such a place could possibly exist.
Everyone wonders what it means, what it is. All creation looks upon the void, returning different thoughts for different minds. Ceal now felt how foolish it was to look upon it with innocent curiosity, to inquire more about what lay within. She was a fool to avoid the warning, avoid the inherent
instinct that comes with being fearful of the void. She had fallen into a place that was irredeemable, she was losing parts of herself that were irreplaceable. Instead, she was receiving succor from it, such dark succor in the only way that darkness knew. Her humanity, it was slipping. She could feel it. Each passing day, she would lose more. She wanted to see the darkness for what could have been good...
But in the darkness, it is easy to lose your way.
Still grinding her teeth, the girl started to finally feel the fit of madness subsiding. Unaware of it herself, she felt the recoil from how tense she was in that moment, muscles involuntarily jerking under the tension as she tried to ease up. Internally, she was having fits as well, her strangled sobs supposedly falling upon deaf ears. It was clear that she was falling into despair again, just like back then. She grew angry to hide the pain, but anger is never the treatment. It's only the painkiller. As she thought idly, she realized it was much like physical pain. Nails digging into her skin, a hand at her throat, a blade placed at her heart. They all did the same, the made her forget of the pain that could not heal. The emotional wreckage she tried to hide away. Soon, she would end up forgetting about all of that. She would forget something she swore to hold in her ideals. She swore that she would never again fall into that pit, to honor the life she had been so lucky to have a second chance at it.
She squandered that.
She squandered it, and yet, that was that small part, that ever so
small part that was relieved. Relieved as if being set free from a prison of self creation. It was the small part of her that was growing, quickly, too quickly. The growing darkness that manifested as her dark side. Though Ceal was a warm-hearted individual, a saint to a fault. It was that glint of darkness, of insanity that flickered across her eyes at times. It was a side of her she quickly grew to fear.
"Are you alright? My name is Kai and I'm a Warden in Vanguard, I'm here to help if you need it. What happened here exactly?"Through all of Ceal's delusions, there was a second voice among it, one distinctly different than the ones before. It was a soft sounding voice, appearing concerned. At first, those words didn't reach Ceal. It took several moments more for her brain to process them among the depth of it's turmoil. It even longer for Ceal to react to the words of the man. She stopped sobbing for a moment and froze, tension returning as she carefully mulled over the words he spoke.
He was of the Vanguard.
While she admittedly knew little of them, she didn't believe they were on good terms with shadow fall. She often would hear about skirmishes or building tensions between them. Let alone what happened at the moon. Ceal felt her anxiety growing quickly, this was a bad place for her to be. If he knew it would end badly for her, and she wasn't ready! No, she definitely wasn't ready to battle anyone else, even less so another apparent human. But- Seeing her like this, it was too late to just write it off as nothing.
Excited arcs of harmless static primed the air, a stay bolt searing across the ruined pathway, one would easily be able to tell that her power was accidentally overflowing. Not in a way meant be harmful, but nevertheless someone would like to be wary of her.
Remaining tense, she jerked her head up and looked at him, her bangs partially obscuring her face. She was right to assume that he had a face of someone she couldn't fight. Defensively, she scurried backwards, back peddling on the ground until her back hit something hard. It was the side of the ruins, her back up against a wall. Of the one eye that shown out from the shadow cast by her bangs, one could easily tell she'd been crying, that right now she was understandably frightened. He would likely think it was whatever her attacker might have been, but the cause of her fear now was him.
She was breathing in jagged breaths, still hiccuping as her diaphragm convulsed over the sobbing of earlier.
”I-I.. I'm fine. Nothing happened. S-So, if you could just p-please leave,” She asked, her manner of pushing him away hardly convincing in the shaky tone she uttered her reply in. She doubled up her stance by warily raising her right arm and making a fist, pointing out with her index and middle finger. Around her fist and forearm, a coil of black lightning snaked around it, ready to be loosed in the event she needed to. She could not tell how this man would react to her. If he pushed for more facts, he could end up arresting her, or worse. He could hurt her.
Ceal used her free arm to wrap around herself defensively, curling her knees up into her chest as she did so, clearly an emotional wreck.