The Angel of the Cosmos, Gwendolyn Forfax [WIP]

General: Gwen is a natural born leader. She was blessed with the gifts of charisma, confidence, and natural authority. When combined and used the way she uses these attributes, she is able to project herself in ways that draw in crowds, helping to somewhat guide them to a similar goal. Many people have assumed her to be a “ruthless” individual with a somewhat skewed “big picture”, meaning when it comes to achieving and meeting goals, nothing will stand in her way. While people typically fear this aspect of her personality she simply sees it as being the best at what she does. Sharp wit, determination, motivation, and drive come together to make a headstrong, and fearless leader.

Achieving Happiness: While many have have a similar means of feeling good/rewarded/fulfilled, Gwen takes that, and then kicks it up to a hundred. She is at her best, when she is accomplishing and meeting her goals. This mixed with her natural skills (charisma, confidence, etc) makes her almost unstoppable when it comes to doing what she wants or what she knows will further her goals along. Be it big or small, any challenge is is overcomable with effort, time, and resources. This need to meet her own expectations she has set for herself is accomplished through strategic thinking, long-term focus, and executing each step of her plans with determination and precision. This becomes self fulfilling prophecy, as this gives her an unwavering doubt that she can do and achieve anything, and will push her a lot farther whereas most people would give up. The best part is, if you stand with her, and defend her or fight with her, she’ll fight for you too, either pushing or dragging you along on her climb to the top.

Strengths Gwen has spent the better part of her lifetime grooming herself into the perfect leader. However, as is the case with many people, she has flaws as well.

Efficiency is very important to her. Being inefficient is unacceptable as it takes time and energy away from the completion of the final/end game goal. If, for example, she had compiled a team of people for a mission, and one of them was displaying signs of...laziness and irrationality, chances are she would attempt to kill them, or very strongly suggest they abandon the cause as she refuses to waste time with lost causes. She is also incredibly energetic. While outwardly, it may seem hard to tell due to her rather monotone way of speaking and the limited range of emotion she chooses to show on her face, she is an incredibly energetic person! Rather than finding the process of earning success a tiring and stress inducing ritual she enjoys the process, the steps, and getting from a, to b, to c, and so on. She enjoys leading and looks at every experience as a chance to learn and grow and become more efficient!
She is also incredibly confident, often looking at her talents without a shred of doubt in any of her abilities. How else could one be a good leader? She trusts in herself and her choices, knowing her capacity to be a good leader. She is fearless when it comes to being honest, and straight up with those around her. She doesn't hold back and when she has a strong opinion she lets it be known. As well as being confident, she’s also strong willed. This in itself could be a strength or weakness, as she has shown to be incredibly headstrong? She knows it's possible for her to be incorrect. Being wrong is a a part of life, but she will follow through on her initial feelings and plan until proven to not work.

As well as her other strengths, her two biggest ones are her charisma and ability to inspire others. While she is often...compared to a spectre, “floating through life” and such without saying too much, when it comes to things she genuinely cares for, her passion is unwavering. She will fight tooth and nail to inspire that same hope, passion, love, and admiration in others for things she feels are worth the fight.

Weaknesses
Everyone has “off” days. However, the complication and often “bossy” nature in which Gwen has molded herself, can come with struggles and problems of it's own.

Being as head strong as she is, it's no surprise than many people have come to think of her as a stubborn person. Refusing to listen to others, pushing her vision too far, even if it doesn’t hold the group's interest anymore, and fighting and striving to win every debate and argument can really rub people the wrong way, including herself. As well as stubborn, she also can be quite dominant and bossy. While she never thinks of her actions as “rude” the things she does and say can certainly feel that way to some. She never intends to be rude or impolite as at her core, she values politeness above all else, but she takes the title of “leader” incredibly serious, and thus, it isn’t impossible to see how she could become bossy or domineering.

As stated before, she won’t hesitate to eliminate or remove a problem from an equation, however, in some cases, she is flat out intolerant. Not working with the individual if their views and ideals differ from hers to where she feels the person is a liability. She often can have a “it's my way or the highway” mentality, and this often shines when people suggest a plan of action that focuses too heavily on the emotional aspect of a goal rather than just working hard to accomplish things, she will often flat out ignore the suggestion, and work to have the person silenced, or just flat out ignore their feelings.

Impatience is also a big issue. Her mind is always racing. Always focused on the next goal, always ready to go and always ready to taste and reach success. So when she interacts with someone who needs “more time to think” or just…”needs more time” than herself or the other “average” person, she will typically step in and do things herself or try and rush them along, often resulting in conflict. Not often, she has mistaken contemplation as stupidity, disinterest, and this without fail, has resulted in conflict. Because of this, she’s “adapted” and will often go around the person and take care of things herself, which she feels is only appropriate if someone can’t handle a task delivered upon them with haste.

She has also been described as arrogant, though Gwen would disagree. She feels as if she has standards and expectations, and if these can not be met, you are not worth her time. Obviously, this isn’t a “kind” train of thought, but it works for her. A flaw she doesn’t see as a flaw.

At the end of the day, she often struggles with being labeled as cold, unfeeling, or ruthless. The later, she doesn’t have a problem with but for an individual who calculates every word she speaks and how it can be interpreted and being fully conscious of the weight of her words, it's no surprise she is often silent unless the situation requires her to speak. She only sees her goals and the future, and has a hard time just “existing” in the present. She knows this to be true. She can be distant and yes, at times unfeeling, but only because anything else would make her a bad leader and she would not be happy if she couldn’t lead.

That being said, it's no surprise she feels as if she bad at “handling emotions”. Due to her leader mentality, it's easy for her to accidentally over look her partner's feelings or her feelings of those she calls friends. Her assumed supremacy of rationalism and logical thinking makes her distant from even her own emotions at times and sometimes, scornful of others.

Romantic Relationships
As with all other things, Gwendolyn approaches relationships and dating with a set of goals and plans to achieve them, and often will proceed to do so with unwavering enthusiasm. When approaching this subject, she is in it to win, and will gladly take a leading role in the relationships from the start, assuming personal responsibility for how smoothly things go and working actively to ensure a mutually rewarding experience for herself and her partner. Romantic relationships are a serious business, and when/if someone strikes her fancy, she’s in it for the long haul.

This sense of personal responsibility means that she puts a lot of time and energy into her (potential) relationships, and she’s happy to show her creativity and interest by always having something new on the agenda to keep things interesting, especially in the dating phase. At the same time though, Gwen likes to keep her eyes on the long term, and if she feels that a relationship is heading towards a dead end, she’ll do herself and her partner a favor, and will cut her losses and move on. To her potential partner, this will most likely come “out of left field” or take them off guard, as one second Gwen could be offering someone the world, and then the next, be completely cold and distant.

However, if one is able to make it past that early dating phase, stays interested, loyal and patient, Gwen is sure to reward them with an endless amount of time, energy, and affection. Her authentic confidence makes her an absolute master in the bedroom. Sex can get very dynamic, to say the least. She will often push to explore new ways to express her affection with unwavering enthusiasm, always looking for new ways to impress and satisfy her partners. This is the only thing in her life where she can be considered “spontaneous”, always quick to improvise or branch out if she feels the mood is right.

Putting as much faith and trust in her partners as she does, this is often one of the incredibly few people she will listen too when it comes to criticism, and will seize any and every opportunity to improve herself, listening to and acting on criticisms, so long as they are logical ones, and always striving to improve her knowledge of herself, and those around her. At the same time, she expects this kind of attitude and behavior of her partners, and it is always surprising to her when others don’t always share this attitude. Still more surprising to her, is others’ active efforts to avoid these tense situations and conversations, which in some cases has resulted in an immediate termination of any chance at a future with these particular people, as she feels it a waste of time to spend effort on trying to improve the overall relationship if the other person isn’t interested.
The biggest and most prominent problem in her relationships is the emotional aspect, as more often than not, she can unintentionally close herself off, and often struggles with doing the guess work required, especially if her partner needs emotional support, but to combat this, she will often state, very simply, that one hundred percent honesty and rawness is required, as she can not read minds, and she is capable of being their for her partners, all they simply need to do is ask.