The Celestial Journal Of Khala Asthavon

Wed Aug 19, 2015 8:25 pm

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THE HEART OF THE DEMEON GOD ROLLS ON

Khala Asthavon

THE SACRED JOURNAL OF THE DEMONIC GODDESS

The Holy War Against The Soul Society Is Waged

●Date: Sometime during April, 28th 2414 and May 1st, 2414
● Thread Being Referenced: https://www.platinumhearts.net/t11744-first-district-the-pale-rider-s-doorstep

I've...killed countless spirits....Suffered endless wounds....Waged endless holy wars.... And plunged my mind into absolute insanity.

All to escape and change the anguish of this existence for myself and others. But on that day I realized.....that fight was all pointless. I saw the world as an extension of myself, but I was so deluded and corrupted by my own powers that I failed to see the truth: I was being the parasite I wanted to eradicate. Try as I might, I yearned to eradicate all the cancer I felt upon my body which was the universe itself. In that realm of thought, I so desired to seek relief and absolute release from ending this existence altogether with the power of death at my side. Yet, from what he showed me...that simply wasn't the case.

I wielded the power of a God, yet I acted not quite like one. I abandoned my own commandments and beliefs for something so -- absurd. I truly could not continue the fight after that revelation was made through millions of souls of lost in the process. My body, it's power, it faded and left me. I could not so much as even stand because of this harsh reality devouring my very spirit and stripping me of my divine prowess for that time.

I had abused my power and I was punished promptly for it. I was wrong in misunderstanding the suffering of this world and existence. While it is indeed a perilous experience to endure this grim realm, the harder one resists against the temptation of giving up, the more their soul evolves and the further their afterlife becomes enriched. For this reason is why Khalaism must be forged -- to remind myself of that -- and to lead the ones who follow me into a pure, eternal life.

I cannot force this path on to others in the hopes of abolishing my own pain, nor can I take back the actions of my corrupted self. But -- I can still keep moving forward as a pillar towards something greater, can I not? I believe in that small ray of hope for myself and my kind. We are said to be a the yang of the universe, but we have the potential to be so much more and share so much love. I -- wanted to share that love and use it to free what I perceived to be my internal selves from any further pain.

...But....is it it something I have to bloody my hands for? Should I....refuse to give in, to such an extent?

I do not quite have that answer, but what I can do is offer those whom seek salvation a paradise and do what I can to appease those whom I've hurt in the process of attaining these goals. The balance has been restored long since I felt the awakening of both of my brothers, Truth, and the Soul King, returning back to existence from my catastrophic venture into the Soul Society. Their warmth has been much relief to my soul...

so..now...I'm tired.....because all is as it should be....I just....want to sleep.....