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Verniy [APPROVED, 2-5+; Magus Sugiura]
Sun Jun 28, 2015 9:54 am
BASIC INFORMATION
Name: Verniy '???' (Верный), is a russian name that she was given by her parents and adapted to it by any means necessary. It wasn't a really beautiful name or an admirable name to remember with but has a deep meaning that follows with it. Meaning of 'reliance', considering of her russian heritage, she was held with high expectations to be a reliable part of the family and expected to promote of their own people through means of power and respect, and she was no exception to spread the heritage of hers.
Title: She has no available title for her own, but has been through nicknames such as Space Eater, The Ripper and so on, and all that nickname came from her abilities alone, although Verniy isn't the type who wants to be remembered that way as a tool or weapon to her people and those around her. In all honesty, she is not even proud to have any of these meaningless title that depicts her as someone can destroy, not to be relied upon.
Age: She isn't as old as to a thousand to a million years old, but can be set within hundreds as she only appear in the sugiura realm not too long ago after her birth, and her body's slow aging process can easily have her appear as a child that isn't only than 14 to 15.
Gender: As you can clearly see that she is a female from every possible angle.
Affiliation: At first, Verniy did not set up any plans or ideas to affliate herself with any organization or team in order to not involve herself into anything that may lead to disaster or the loss of lives, trying to be a reliable person to the world, but changed her mind otherwise as that she knew that she won't be able to do such task alone. Hence, Verniy was once and now still apart & under the Russian Government to make use of her abilities to protect the country of Russia from uninvited intruders and any incoming attacks against their people in order to protect the peace and the neutral status of this country, giving Verniy to have a strong ties of the Russian Government at most due to her service to look after the people of Russia to live up to her name of 'reliability'. Otherwise, she is currently unaffiliated with any other organization but have a slight interest to work with the Vanguard in order to widen her views in being relied upon to protect more lives.
Sugiuran Type: Magus Sugiura
Origin: Its quite difficult to understand her origin & its nature, however, given for her power, Verniy is known to be the Sugiuran of Space.
Kingdom: Being born on Earth, she has no determined kingdom that she hails from. However, if it were to follow by her parents and genes, Verniy would be acknowledged to hail from the Northern Kingdom.
Appearance Details: Aside for her child-like stature, Verniy has a rather unique appearance in spite of her russian heritage, having a mixture between Japanese and Russian in appearance, it was clear that her petite beauty and appearance were heavily influenced by her dominant russian genes passed down by her mother, while having the delicate face similar to that of a Japanese woman, and having features of a more dominant part of her recessive genes considering how different she is from most russian women.
Accompanied by nothing else than her robot-like expression, the way she dresses was enough to show loyalty and dedication to her own country that she was born in, the Russia and its people. Wearing a white navy hat with two red stripes going across the sides of the hat itself, and with a distinctive feature to the hat, having a symbol of a hammer-and-sickle which refers to the flag of the Soviet Union, followed together with a gold star right beside the symbol. Her attire was nothing special to say so, wearing a typical white sailor uniform that she finds suitable as a combat attire during her fights, allowing her to maneuver properly without the hindrance of long, heavy clothing pulling her around and unlike most Magus sugiuran that wears robes in different colors in order to judge them by the rankings of their abilities, instead of a robe, she dons a white sailor uniform which she refers her 'own Magus rank' as 'unknown', because the imbalance and destructive nature of her powers, it makes things difficult to gauge her actual capability to give her an actual rank through color, so she follows her own beliefs and dons her own color of her choice, white & simple.
However, her attire was not something to look after but the delicacy of her very being. Endowed by a long, smooth hair that reflects the light on its almost silvery color, near of being completely white, and responds softly when the air breezes through her straight yet almost astonishingly beautiful hair, something that she's proud of grooming since she was a child, always taking care of its shape, color and beauty of it, and through proper care, is why her hair was always seemingly unfettered by age neither after her battles, in its silky smooth shape that seems as if not even a pin had harmed it. Followed by her pair of blue to silver-like eyes, she has an unknown condition that causes her eyes to involuntarily change its color between dark blue, light blue to silver color, which is unresponsive to her mood as it would sometimes unconditionally change without any causes or symptoms that may affect her eye colors to change, but even with such condition, her eyes can be described to be 'as beautiful as the stars' yet with a small disappointment that follows along with the beauty of her eyes, behind those eyes would be nothing more than emptiness that lurks beyond the soul of her eyes because her inability to be able to express her emotions and has affected her facially and somehow, internally if one were to stare right into her eyes but some said it may be a 'mental barrier' that blocks the internal beauty of her very eyes.
Following up, Verniy has a snow white skin, presumably as that is genetically passed down by her mother's genes. Her skin being as white as a snow, seemingly as if the sun had never shone upon the layer of her skin nor is there a scar that stays before her flesh. Its hard to say its because of her russian heritage that gave her such a smooth skin, that if a hand had glided over her skin, it would feel as if there is no rough edges that would show her body ever deteriorate neither did it even age at all, staying true to its youth and snow white color that would simply baffles most people that sees her for the first time that is almost untouched by age itself. Clear white skin that reflects the light around her, surely, it is really a surprise considering what Verniy 'does' in her role as a Magus Sugiuran, with the origin of Space, something that one would not believe for her to dawn that kind of origin with her in contrast to the purity of her appearance that one would mistake her origin of Creation, but they should not judge a book by its cover, even given to how she looks for a woman of her age.
Otherwise, for the general figure of hers, she stands somewhere between 4'4" to 4'7" on her height, while weighing lighter than 100 pounds due to her rather small and thin figure. Having a chest size that is comparable to that of a flat-chested girl, and yes, she still has grown a little on her chest size and still has a room for her to continue growing just because she looks like a child.PERSONALITY
Inexpressive: Verniy is rather inexpressive, which may come as a surprise to a lot of people that have met her for the first time and mistaken her to be an emotionless individual. Considering that it isn't hereditary from her family, some consider it to be an unknown disease that have impaired her ability to express any physical emotions such as anger, sadness, pain or joy and this inability to express those emotions causes difficulty for others to understand how she actually feels.
In truth, Verniy's true feelings actually differ a lot from what her expression or body language says. But because of her inability to express her emotions physically, it doesn't help that she also has issues translating her feelings into words and sometimes come off as weird or nonsensical since she wasn't taught the proper way to express a need or an opinion. Its because problems like this that she gives up and stay silent.
Although a few years later after her disappearance, there is a considerable improvement as she had taught herself to use parts of her facial muscles and can do basic expressions like a simple smile but with great difficulty and sometimes, even painful.
Quiet: Despite her needs to be relied upon, Verniy is a type that stays quiet most since she is the type to talk less and do more, which that is, if it is towards strangers whom she does not know. Generally, in most cases, Verniy keeps her problems to herself regardless of what it is without involving anyone into it and solves it on her own accord, and doesn't talk to anyone whom she isn't familiar with even if they are the higher-ups, only to speak and reply to questions that she finds relevant and appropriate for her to answer unless it is unnecessary.
Even by her own need to express herself through words, she is, by any means, a rather shy individual that led up to her silent nature but of course, not to hostile people that she finds as threatening or annoying. She wants to communicate with the people around her and have friends to stand alongside with her, rely on her when needed and have someone that she can be comfortable with, however, unable to express her shyness, all she could do was to either avoid or stare at them and stay silent for the entire time.
However, Verniy is slowly overcoming her paranoia resulted from her past. During the few years that she had disappeared, she had secretly practicing talking to herself and sometimes to the animals to familiarize herself in talking with other people. While she hasn't overcome her silence yet, compared to the time when she simply refused to talk, Verniy is capable of conducting a short conversation with other people before she would stutter out of nervousness.
Reliable: Despite being such a quiet individual, she never fails to disappoint the expectations of those around her, as long as if they are her comrades, the true meaning of her name really shines through her reliability. Even if she rarely talks and cannot express herself facially, it doesn't mean that she is an unreliable individual that cannot do anything at all. As long as orders are given, or if duty calls according to the situation, she becomes a force to be reckoned with even her enemies regardless who her enemies are.
Not a type that jokes or plays around a lot, she takes her surroundings and words very seriously, especially friendship and comradeship because she holds these relationships dearly to herself for people that she can trust, but regardless, a stranger or not, if they are allies, any tasks given to her would be taken seriously to herself, even if it meant as a situation between life or death, she can be regarded as a selfless person who never thought twice about her own safety to fight for what she believes in; reliability as an individual herself, and because of her reliable persona, she can be dictated as a trustworthy person to stick around with, as well as an ally that one can depend on when things really starts to fall apart. Not the best person to ask comfort from, but you can rely on her when the situation's dire enough. However, at some point, she takes her reliability too far into the view, in her past, she tried hard to stay true to her existence as being a 'reliable' person and probably, there will be one day that she will be mentally broken down the more she relies on this state of mind of being 'reliable'.
Strong Determination: Staying true to her reliability, it is the fuel to her determination to continue on, with the purpose she was given to be reliable to others engraved deep within her name, 'Verniy'. Needing to be useful and reliable to her comrades especially her friends, her determination far surpasses what she can physically do, going through even the worst times in order to fulfill her task that is given to her, and willing to sacrifice parts of her body if it meant of saving the lives of others.
However, not only just because she wanted to stay through to the concept of her own existence that follows the 'code' of her name, but her determination can be easily seen in trying to have others understand her situation as well, for herself to be born this way, she can be easily misunderstood if her response is taken the wrong way, and for her, she can tolerate all of that with sheer force of will, with her inability to facially express her emotions and need to be reliable to others, she is one strong girl for her age to be able to keep all of her problems to herself without involving others into it while still remain her combat abilities unaffected, whether if that issue is of her own personal situation, psychologically or physically, even if she is under huge pain, all she could do was stay strong and strengthen her determination to go through it by herself.
Sure, she is very strong, and she would try to go through her problems all by herself to be more powerful and reliable to others to follow her own 'code', but at times, that determination cannot last forever and once it breaks, it could heavily affect her ability to fight or even halt her movements completely, so she isn't a person who is happy with the way she was 'born' with as someone more normal and expressive, having to tolerate with all of that, props can be given to her for how much she had to pull through.
Likes & Dislikes: Surprisingly, Verniy is very neutral to the topic when it comes to her likes and dislikes. She doesn't have her own preferences of what she wants or does not want, and that she would accept just about anything, and even eat just about anything that she finds edible to her tastes. If you ask her about what she likes the most, she would most likely answer with 'To be relied by others', although when it comes to gifts, its tough to know what she really wants considering her neutrality to everything and everyone around her without being picky.
However, Verniy herself would appreciate the things given to her, and people that associates with her without the need for her to give the reason. Saying that she's neutral, means that she necessarily like or dislike anything at all, since there is nothing that she truly 'likes' than being relied upon, nor is there anything that she truly 'dislikes', for an exception that she despises hostile enemies that would intimidate her friends or allies. Other than that? She holds no regards for anything else than just.. 'accept it' otherwise. So, she isn't the ideal person to ask for advice, since she would just go for everything that is given to her without a question about it, but of course, she has common sense of her own and understand what is logical and illogical, although since she's pretty much neutral, she would just go along with it without a single question in mind unless she finds it exaggerating.BACKGROUND
Birth Arc
In an unknown year, Verniy first appeared in this world, said to be filled with beauty and happiness, a world that needed protection against the all-mighty evil, by two elegant parents that she was fortunate to born from, a complete father and mother, however, they are also the people that she forgot 'who' they are, but she knew that her father is an average Japanese male who seems to be a normal sugiuran who is said to be a tall in height and considerably good-looking enough to be able to attract most of his opposite sex while her mother is a Russian female, someone whom most of her genes that she inherited from, is known to be a Magus Sugiuran whom is also born in Russia just like Verniy, and known to have a long, flowing white hair that will baffle most of the people around her and admire the feminine features that her mother has as well as her so-called leadership that she do not remember what or whom she had led into battlefield with before Verniy's birth into the existence.
Born in Russia within the states of Moscow, a federal city that is known to be the largest city in Russia with more than 10 million people that lived here. Living in an average lifestyle with parents that is almost overjoyed when she was born, what had astonished and made them more excited is that even as infant, she had inherited the Psionic energy that her mother had as a Magus, and she didn't just 'simply' have it. During the time of giving birth, not only had her inherited recessive genes of her mother whom is a Magus had exponentially expanded her Psionic energy capacity to be able to contain a huge chunk of energy, at that time, her mother had transferred a majority of her spiritual energy to give birth to a powerful sugiuran, and having the Psion signature & genes of her mother, it was no wonder that she is already a natural-born Magus Sugiuran, together as an infant that already has a massive volume of Psionic energy that can make most tell that she would grow up as an exceptionally-powerful sugiuran just like her mother, even if her parents didn't do much to make themselves known or had any special position within the Sugiuran Realm or their organization, but they are considered as a pair of powerful beings that were meant to be together and bear a child that will become their hope and pride that they will and shall put into the effort of raising her. Already bearing a huge responsibility from the day she was born, she was named 'Verniy', not remembering her last name since its been long since she was reminded of it, that her parents hoped that when she grew mature enough, she would be grown as a reliable individual to others, to be loved and to be treated equally without differentiating powers nor position, and not to be treated as a weapon just because she held so much power from the day of her birth.
Childhood Arc
Whilst of growing up, Verniy had one odd trait that she was brought up with, that her parents came to realization after years gone by, that she was.. inexpressive when her brain was developed enough for her to logically think as a child. As a baby, she cried and made noises just like any other infants could, but a few years simply passed by, raising her in an environment as happy as she could enjoy, no conflicts nor is there any arguments, proper nutrition and away from danger, but she only grew more and more quiet as she grows up, and at a very young age when she was both physically and mentally a child at age, she had simply.. and miraculously, lost all of her ability to be able to express herself facially anymore, no more smiles on her lips, no more joy brimming in her eyes, and all that's left of her existence was emptiness, almost like a soulless, walking doll with nothing but a machine-like child speaking in a near-dead voice. It was a nightmarish change for her parents, really, its almost like an act of a curse as if something bad had befall against her innocent existence when she grew up. Losing all emotional expression and speaking in a monotone voice left a shock to her parents, and because of that, they tried again and again to find the cause of it, through doctors and scan the Psionic properties of her body that may have caused it, but the phenomena was unknown to what may have her lose all of her ability to facially express her emotions to the point that she is left with a monotone voice. Why would this happen to an innocent child who didn't know how to fight, to defend herself nor acknowledge this world yet? Her existence didn't offended anyone at all, that she grew up with nothing more than a smile, and now deteriorated into nothing more than a straight, empty, emotionless face with nothing to tell anymore.
It was a depressing event to her parents to go through, but the only possibility that can be said is her birth that may have affected Verniy when she was an infant, since being born while containing an abnormal amount of Psionic energy may have affected her mental capabilities and the effects only kicked in when she reach a sufficient age to subconsciously control her spiritual power as a child, but in return for the damage that caused in her infancy, she lost all of her abilities to express her emotions facially, and her parents would only understand her when she 'told them' about it. In the end, they simply gave up, in the best of their abilities to return the joyful girl she once were now donned a face of a cold machine
In her days in Russia before she moved to Japan in Karakura City, Verniy did not receive any formal education in schools nor is there any tuition that was provided for the sake of expanding knowledge, and instead of being formally educated in a sense of going through basic education of history and mathematics, she was educated, well, informally, by her parents or known as home study. Different from most 'education', she was instead taught to expand her knowledge in various areas and specialties regarding to calculation abilities in order to further her sugiuran abilities that she may soon unlock once she hits a certain age of discovering where her true power lies, and expanding the ability to calculate would become an essential knowledge to be used in her future adventures.
Every single day, Verniy had never been outside of her house and even if she does, it is nothing more than a rare occasion of meeting up with someone, either a doctor to 'cure' of her inexpressive emotions or a relative whom she hardly ever remembers. Heavily lacking any sort of communication with anyone outside of her house was a rough task to handle for her if she were to go out someday to survive alone, always living in her home and listening to the lectures of her parents that tried fitting the knowledge of Sugiurans into her mind while she is still.. well, young. Everything about Sugiuran magic to fit the status that she can live through to continue her mother's legacy, and taught her the basics of hand-to-hand combat to fit her father's footsteps as a normal Sugiuran into the ability of protecting herself when it comes to worst.
All in all, in most of her childhood days, she was ever stuck in her home, listening to the lectures and teachings of her parents, never to talk and never to communicate with anyone in her life, simply put, she was nothing more than a lonely, empty child whom has nothing but than a speck of knowledge of everything that her parents could teach her while she was still young. No friends, no gossips, just nothing, and that is when her memories about her parents began to melt down, even if she wants to be relied upon, this was just way too much for her parents, as if their love for her began to disappear when they realized that she couldn't be the happy child for them anymore, naming her as a 'defective child' but otherwise, as their only daughter, they had no choice but to force their knowledge and abilities on Verniy against her will, making her life more than the term of 'miserable'.
A once happy family, now ended with nothing more than pieces that shattered them apart, over the fact that Verniy just had a disability to not being able to facially express her emotions was regarded by her family as 'defected', to the point of willing to abuse her for the sake of passing down these abilities to the next generation as she is the only child within the family. She didn't know why, nor could she able to express it, but things took a darker turn within the family and in the end, it was no longer an enjoyment in life, it was suffering. Without regarding for her feelings, without knowing what she wanted, without understanding how she did not want things to end up this way, all Verniy could do was to endure the abuse for years and years that goes out, staying strong and grasping the will of her own without anyone for her hand to go out to. There was no need for trauma for her childhood, since she pinned the blame onto herself to be born for not being able to be reliable and fulfill what her parents wanted, to be taught with countless techniques and abilities from her father, while expanding her ability to utilize sugiura magic and its energy in a number of ways by her mother, but all of that without any of those 'parental love' before the tragic struck the family's legacy.
Until a few decades later, she finally left her home and away from her parents, all the way from Moscow to Samara in Russia, and yes, for those decades of being isolated from the world just to 'continue' the legacy of her family had forced her to reach the breaking point of her mental tolerance, and ultimately left home in secret before morning arises from the mountains, never leaving a single trace nor a message to her leave. Even if she couldn't express how she felt, it didn't mean that she couldn't 'feel' it internally, the pain and suffering she underwent to tolerate the days that her parents unleashed their disappointment upon her for being a 'defective' child, and that breaking point made a difference in her mindset, a true difference. The need to reliable yet her existence is used merely nothing but a tool by her parents that now felt like strangers to her, and the light that once brimmed in her soul now covered her with an emptiness in the inside and outside like the void of the universe, and this type of conflict within herself and the surroundings would give birth to her origin, 'Space', as a description in both her powers to manipulate space-time which she discovered later on and the void-like emptiness in her emotions.
Nevertheless, she was still a child, both physically and mentally due to her lack of communication to people outside of her home, and leaving it was a hard task to deal with, especially when she is alone, in Samara with no one that she knew or recognize to be considered an ally, trapped and lost, at last, she was no one else than a mere child standing in the middle of the road. Moving a few days after she first arrived to Samara, in order to make a living to feed herself instead of starving in the streets to her demise, she took the opportunity of her knowledge in Sugiuran Magic, in something more reliable not only to others but to herself as well, staying true to that concept that she lived with since birth, to live through the ordeal of staying alive after a few days of leaving home, she decided to 'perform' in the streets of Samara, Russia, using her knowledge in Sugiuran Magic and her ability to be able to control them in order to entertain the civilians of Russia, the bystanders & passerbys who walked by her, and catch the show she was able to do in various ways, simple tasks such as bending light, having objects appear out of nowhere, as much as she can to entertain the people who seem to enjoy of her performance in this so-called 'magic', even if it was mainstream enough, her powers made it far more fascinating to watch as if it seemed so realistic that it was unbelievable.
And from that point, it was as if she found a purpose in life just by performing in the streets of Russia that made her felt proud and reliable to the people, that she was able to carry out something different that made others laugh and felt joy. Even with the usual blank expression that she carries since the tragedy of such disability struck her, deep within her heart, she was more than glad enough to be doing such a minor duty and still able to do such.. joys in the streets, and there, she strive to expand her own knowledge and create her own abilities to do much bigger things, to entertain more, because she knew that the same old tricks won't cut it. However, her joyful life in Russia were soon to end a few years with a much bigger and newer purpose after the day she began performing in the streets of Samara.
Russia Arc
Skipping a few years ahead after Verniy began to make a living off of entertaining civilians in the streets of Samara, Russia, using her powers to earn a living through showing them different tricks to give them a surprise or a fun to watch. Never to cheat or carried out any misdeeds in the country, and as a native whom is born and raised in this very country not only held good records of her behaviors in public, but the usage of her powers and the uniqueness of it had attracted the attention of the Russian Government and without the doubt, she was proven with a potential recruit in the protection of the country itself, her calmness in assessing the situation despite moving into a new city from Moscow to Samara, had her lived until now without facing any issues of living away from the watch of her parents which she left home without a word of her existence. Soon after, she was approached by the 'agents', or whatever you may refer them as, to be the representative of the Russian Government in search of recruiting her into the government.
Why? Because of her knowledge of Sugiuran Magic and the uniqueness of her abilities, they expected her to be able to take up the offer to make use of those capabilities to look after the people of Russia, an isolated state that seemed to have secured themselves in the protection of superpowered beings, namingly 'Radioactive' and 'James' known in Russia, having the country keeping things to themselves without being internationally involved in war or control, effectively making Russia a neutral country with protection served by the Russian Government and many other superhuman beings that is willing to look after it from possible dangers and intruders that may wreck havoc in the state of Russia. For such a reason, the government wished to 'recruit' more superpowered beings into the state, to protect and secure the country's safety from unnecessary attacks. Verniy was skeptical about such an offer from the beginning, but soon officially became apart of the Russian Government under a condition that she should not involved with the country's politics, within the state or internationally, other than the protection of Russia, Verniy have no other interest of involving herself with the government's affairs and that is the only condition she requests for to be serving the Russian Government for the protection of the people. She had no means to reject that offer, as much as she wants to be a 'reliable' person.
Under the watch of the Russian Government and her duties to protect it, she used the time given to further deepen her understanding of the concept of 'Space', to utilize it and dwell into different dimensions of understanding in space-time, in an attempt to further her knowledge of how the powers of her race works, given by her mother's understanding of their magic and the way they utilize their energy differently in accordance to races. The isolation she was provided by her parents, however, had limited her abilities to actually know the words meant behind her mother's mouth about races and the utilization of sugiuran magic, making it rather hard for her to put together things into a single concept for her to understand and use it to her advantage.
After an unknown amount of time that she took refuge in Russia since the day she had left home from her parents that only treated her for the worst, Verniy eventually left Russia after developing a few skills of her own, but frantically forgotten since it has been a long time since she remembered what she had developed at that period of time in Russia, but she understood that it was something that shouldn't be meddled with. Despite leaving Russia after serving them for quite some time, she didn't cut ties with them and proceed to state herself that she only left for 'personal reasons' to the Government without any further details to discuss about her loyalty to the Government and the state of Russia. Where is she heading to when she left Russia? Well, as one has guessed it, she went to Japan, where Karakura Central resides in and she embarked her journey to Karakura City to see 'what' they are, to see the technological advances under the protection of a person titled by the name of 'Beast of Karakura' and see how they run that place with full authority.
Japan Arc
Not provided by the government, but Verniy arrived in Japan by using her own savings when she used to perform in the streets, making her rather resourceful at times like these, since serving for the Russian Government to protect the state doesn't necessarily mean that she'll always be provided with money at all times, so using her own savings, she bought her own flight ticket and travelled all the way from Russia to Japan, where Karakura City is located at. The events that was happening wasn't all that much, when she came to Japan several years before the the year, 2415.
Of course, as Verniy originates and is born in Russia, as well as having parents of a mixture between a Russian mother and a Japanese father, her knowledge in Japanese is terrible, to the point that she couldn't read Kanji nor could she communicate in their language, and limits her ability to understand the general idea of how Karakura City works, in culture and moral standards of how the city runs on its own. So, in general, Verniy is like a newborn in Japan, not knowing anything at all about Japan and their language. This situation makes it hard for her to go around to different places, not to mention about her seemingly quiet and expressionless nature only made things worse, because it makes things hard for her to ask for help without making situations feel very awkward. At the point of feeling helpless, someone seemingly approached her in lending her a hand.
Disappearance Arc
After her meeting with Mirja, Verniy had ultimately disappeared without a word, no reasons, no farewells. There wasn't any major reason as to why Verniy had left but after seeing the affectionate nature of Mirja, it sparked a change in herself and wanted to improve from who she is. She discovered the difficulties of expressing her intent and if she wanted to communicate better, she had to do something about it.
This is why she was up and gone. Verniy felt that her current state would only bring disgrace to the Russian Government if she can't even make a simple friend because of her fear caused by her past. She decided that unless she felt like she was ready to meet Mirja again and be more confident in her return, she was going to stay silent.
Return Arc
In the year 2419, Verniy had finally made her return to Japan after a long few years of absence and already she was eager to see her first friend - Mirja. Although by instinct, she felt something was a bit off but nonetheless, she was ready to return this time -- and better.