I'm not sure what this is

With recent life problems arising and myself becoming confused in what I am anymore, and why I'm around, I just wanted to say I might be disappearing. I'm in a rather poor mental state and I don't see it changing anytime soon, because I am who I am. Sadly, that means a depressing idiot who can't seem to pull himself out of it. My mom is sick and its hurting me as her child, my dad isn't working and its simply causing problems for us. Work is physically draining and all the classes I've started taking have brought me to the point of quitting everything. I'm just in a bad place and sadly don't know what to do. I wish I knew exactly how to fix myself but I don't and I don't think I'll ever be able to figure out what it is. So, what this thread is.. I don't know. I'm not leaving. I'm not quitting. But If I do just leave, it's because I've become a recluse and didn't seem to care enough to stop it. I'm just in a bad place and won't see myself leaving it anytime soon. That's all really that I had to say.