So this is Goodbye

I'm sorry for all those that I'm in threads with..... I just can't stay on anymore.....

It isn't a matter of muse or my interest in the site, although it could be in a way my interest. Just I know the inevitable comes soon and I just can't go out of my way to beat around it.

So, I'll try to make this short, it kinds hurts me inside to write this and have to give up rp on ph..... but it is something i must do.

For those that notice, I disappear for days at a time. Half because real life is something I have to deal with and the other half is the threads and posts that I need to do or have forgotten about. I often come back on to the computer and think of all the stuff that I need to do and in some cases I just can't find the muse or energy to make it. It falls on my mind and I seem to think whoever I need to post for hates me, I don't know why but I just do. It is something I should learn that people are understanding of here, but I still feel that I let people down and they truly are angry with the fact that I haven't posted......

This cycle just can't continue, I can't keep pushing things aside, not posting for some people and just throwing things behind. I try to ignore it, I ignore it by making new threads, jumping into the events, and overall putting my mind elsewhere. It does nothing good for me or the others that are on this site. I apologize to Viz that I've had a thread with held off for so long that it isn't even funny because of me. I also apologize to Nitro because that thread that we have just begun will never kick off now. I also apologize to everyone that I'm in an event with because I will now have to pull my characters out.

Normally this is something that can be fixed by just talking to people , and there is much more to this situation....

As I said, that I turn to real life and disappear from ph with my guilty mind, yet I still can't find my focus, I often think of new things to do when I return to ph and turn everything around. From what people should notice is that I never do get everything back on track or even progress sometimes when I return from my disappearances.... The other side of things is that I've let things that I do in real life slip because I've been focused on trying to return to ph and overall it hasn't been very good for me in rl. It's just been a disaster that JJ doesn't even know... well he should at least be hinted in someways. But for basics of one thing is that my parents would like me to find something else to dedicate my time to besides rp, being on a computer, or any sort of electronics for games or entertainment. May this be in a hobby, volunteer work, or a job, and I haven't been too thrilled or even putting effort into trying to get one of those, but that needs to be picked because I know that this will help me down the line in life.

But the final reason that I must leave ph is simple and absolute, sometime this week or next week I must return this laptop to the school, leaving me with little time to use the computer at home or other devices. I also don't want to be a bother on JJ and you guys to get my posting done, hell with what I should be focused on it shouldn't be on my mind at all. Perhaps if I get a job and earn enough money,I'll go get a laptop.... but that will probably be a while anyway...

So this is why I must say goodbye, farewell ph.

I'll miss all of you.......

I might visit one last time this week or next but other than that, I have no clue when I shall return and even If i do try to return soon afterwards, I shouldn't be back until at least a month, If I do, I've probably caved in and given up, but if I have, ph is probably not where I will be. I'll probably very far from ever reaching ph.

So, Bye.

You are adding more drama to this then there has to be, and you are looking at Platinum Hearts as a job instead of a hobby, which is the wrong way to do things. Your issue—where you know you do have posts on your plate and things you should take care of, but just don't feel like doing—is exactly what my case was like a month ago before I came back. I was even gone from the site altogether in favor of other things, or just taking care of school. Of course I felt guilt, but then I remembered what kind of place Platinum Hearts is:

These people are not your co-workers or your bosses. We're you're friends, and you are a well-respected member of our community (or family as some of us call it). When you come back, not if, you may be surprised to find that no one will hate you for your decision or hold your inactivity against you, as I have discovered myself. As long as your case is explained, you can lurk in the Xat without fear of angering people. And if you still decide to leave because you simply don't have the time? Very well, but still you will depart with the understanding of your friends here.

My point is, you'll always be welcomed here as a veteran, and you should not be afraid to check in just like you're visiting a friend's house. You and Raiki can idle it up in the chat box all you want!

For sure, you have my support in whatever choice you make.

Whenever a game starts to feel like a chore, it's time to take a break or re-evaluate your approach to it (looking at you, MMOs) so take a break, let cooler heads prevail, etc etc.

Why in the hell would this be goodbye? m8, I think everyone who has been on this site a good while, or role played in general, has had a period where they needed to step back and focus on things occurring in their real life. While I am saddened that you are going on this temp leave because I enjoyed your company, I understand that shit happens and you just gotta sort your things out.

Therefore, I feel you will probably come back to the site when your more stable and grounded. So I don't take it as a goodbye VS you just going on an extended leave. It doesn't have to be a farewell unless you make it that. You are always welcomed on the xat or forum to post around whenever you can and I hope you do find a way to make things work in this uncertain time.

So do what you need to, and as always, we will be right here waiting whenever you are ready to get the ball rolling on PH. 'Cause buddy, I doubt we are going anywhere for awhile.